I am shocked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am shocked because I just received the first birthday card from my real mom!!! A while back I was messing around with zaba search(people search) and thought it would be neat if I got a hold of my real mom. She left me with my Dad when I was 1yr 3mos. old and never looked back. I remember seeing her once when I was 8yrs old and again at 14yrs.,when she offered to take me off my Dad's hands for a while(of all the nerve!). Needless to say I stayed with my loving Dad. When I was 20 I was in a bit of trouble with an obsessive ex-boyfriend who would not stop stalking me so I got a hold of her to ask to come to Washington and stay with her to get away. When she said yes I was on cloud nine hoping this was my chance to get to know her. When I got there she told me I had 2weeks to get out, when before she said I could stay until I got a job and a place of my own. Turned out that the ex-freak showed up three days later and I was so hurt I actually left with him to return to Oregon. I really should write a novel about my life,it sure has been interesting to say the least. Anyway,using Zaba Search I called all the numbers with her name and about the 8th call I found her. I was excited. I gave her my address and numbers and after a short shallow conversation we hung up. That was about three months ago. I left the ball in her court hoping she would make an effort. Today checking the mail I got my first birthday card,my first ANYTHING from her. It had a little note saying she wants to come visit for a few days late Aug. or early Sept. WOW!!! One thing about unconditional love is that it is UNCONDITIONAL. She is my mother. Without her I wouldn't be here and I am happy to be alive. I used to resent her when I was young and needed a Mom to help me become a lady  but now I have compassion. I know she had no spine or courage or whatever it was to keep her from me. I forgave her a long time ago. Forgiveness feels so much better than carrying around resentment and hate. Today is a new day. I am nervous and extremely excited to meet her. I blogged about being disowned by a family member earlier and JKoczela said that it seems that when the universe takes someone away the universe also replaces them,I guess she was right! LOVE AND LIGHT-SAHNDRA

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