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Birth Date: Sun, Aug 05 1973

Place of residence:
Salem Oregon, United States (map)

I am: In Relationship

Schools: McNary High

Jobs: I have been a server for about 9 years now. I've worked @ IHOP, Sharie's, and Applebee's. Have yet to break that that 3yr. mark. I am also a mother of 4 wonderful children,3 boys(7,9,&almost 14) 1 girl,13. I am also a loving mate for a very deserving man.


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To be the best mom I can, because they are the future.
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I am shocked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

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  Sahndra_om

Thu, Aug 07 05:23 PM

I am shocked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I am shocked because I just received the first birthday card from my real mom!!! A while back I was messing around with zaba search(people search) and thought it would be neat if I got a hold of my real mom. She left me with my Dad when I was 1yr 3mos. old and never looked back. I remember seeing her once when I was 8yrs old and again at 14yrs.,when she offered to take me off my Dad's hands for a while(of all the nerve!). Needless to say I stayed with my loving Dad. When I was 20 I was in a bit of trouble with an obsessive ex-boyfriend who would not stop stalking me so I got a hold of her to ask to come to Washington and stay with her to get away. When she said yes I was on cloud nine hoping this was my chance to get to know her. When I got there she told me I had 2weeks to get out, when before she said I could stay until I got a job and a place of my own. Turned out that the ex-freak showed up three days later and I was so hurt I actually left with him to return to Oregon. I really should write a novel about my life,it sure has been interesting to say the least. Anyway,using Zaba Search I called all the numbers with her name and about the 8th call I found her. I was excited. I gave her my address and numbers and after a short shallow conversation we hung up. That was about three months ago. I left the ball in her court hoping she would make an effort. Today checking the mail I got my first birthday card,my first ANYTHING from her. It had a little note saying she wants to come visit for a few days late Aug. or early Sept. WOW!!! One thing about unconditional love is that it is UNCONDITIONAL. She is my mother. Without her I wouldn't be here and I am happy to be alive. I used to resent her when I was young and needed a Mom to help me become a lady  but now I have compassion. I know she had no spine or courage or whatever it was to keep her from me. I forgave her a long time ago. Forgiveness feels so much better than carrying around resentment and hate. Today is a new day. I am nervous and extremely excited to meet her. I blogged about being disowned by a family member earlier and JKoczela said that it seems that when the universe takes someone away the universe also replaces them,I guess she was right! LOVE AND LIGHT-SAHNDRA

 

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Oh my goodness...

DrDebbie-1218175364630756

Sahndra,

 

My goodness...how amazing is this...receiving your first birthday card from your Mom.

I'm so happy for you.

I am bringing you a ray of beautiful sunshine to represent what could possibly get created with your Mother/Daugher relationship for the future.

No matter what bumps may occur, allow the rays of sunshine to brighten your way...how you see things...the hope of what's possible.

 

Many loving blessings,

 

Dr. Debbie

 

Thank you for the personal email...it meant allot to me to receive it and be a part of this very important moment with you.

Life: Complicated but It is what it is!

Sahndra, I can only imagine all the mixed and jumbled emotions going on in you.  Just remember that Biology does not make a parent, LOVE DOES.  Yes, your mother is always your mother - Actions are the gage to real love and devotion.  Go with your heart and with your instincts - they will tell you how to react and to deal with these situations, first instincts are often the most correct for us - follow that inner voice, it will give you guidance.  Micci

Sending you a hug Sending you a hug, ((HUGS!))

 

Happy for you!

I am happy for you and glad at the way you are handling it. I hope and wish you well and happiness!!

 

Sending you a hug Sending you a hug

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What a journey you have had. I agree our mother is our mother no matter what and if you can love her despite all her limitations, you will help fill that place inside of yourself that she was not able to fill.

 

Sometimes as people get older they realize things--they drop some of their fears and hardnesses and self-criticism, and really see what is valuable. I hope this is the case...it seems perhaps...for her.

 

It sound like she cannot give very much. But she has reached out to you in the ways she can. That really brings tears to my eyes for both of you.  

and another thing...

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Your Real First Birthday

You are a dear precious child of God-Creation-Source... Your  story is a conformation of something I feel about Life.

 

It takes two people to create a life... it takes Love (that may take years to receive) to give you Birth...to the wonder of life.

 

And so it is a treasure to read of your "Birth" day with your Mother. 

 

Without love we are nothing, thank you for sharing yours.

 

 

 

Sending you lots of love

 

Sending you lots of love

so2u