Well right now I am very unhappy.. over weight...at a dead end job having a difficult time with my finances...and have lost two places maybe soon to three in the past 3 years.  I am discovering a passion for photography and I have been building my profile. I love animals and have taken several in. I really need to fix alot of my problems I feel like asap at least get a hold on some of them. I am tired of the circles I have been running..I have felt like this pain was my destiny ..but I do not feel like this anymore..I am tired of being tired. and repeating my parents mistakes as well as my own.. I just want to find myself in a more peaceful place...get far away from people that hurt me...because I am scared to repeat history.

My past has been haunting me all my adulthood...watching domestic violence between my parents...from a verbally and phyically abusive father..to a mother whom abandoned my brother and I. I have alot of self esteem issues from my past...I feel like some things said and done to me were permantally inbedded in my head such is what I feel and think do not matter...so when speaking my mind I am unsure and I doubt myself and it's hard to make a case that way..... I also have been attacked twice by two different men ..one a long time friend and another a stranger...my past has made me very angry at men. I was always extremely shy which has actually been good for me..I am good at reading people..

I am hoping to rent a home soon...one in which I will have roommates..I am going to start a food plan that will not only encourage me to lose weight but to also control my spending on bad foods from bad places such as 7Eleven...also I am creating a budget which will allow me to take a trip to Iceland o see my mother because I just found out she has luekemia..I plan on presuing photography..as a career..of course most likely I will have to have a second job which is fine by me as long as I get to do something with it I also love. Right now this is all I have to write about my future.