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Sun, May 24 08:52 AM

Happy F-ing Anniversary......

 

Well today is my 16th wedding anniversary... usually a happy day in one's life... sadly thats not the case for me... On a day when I would have woken up in my wife's arms or having her near......She woke up today in the arms of her boyfriend... I wonder is she even realized what today was....... Did it mean anything to her or am I the only one feeling the loss of what was and what could have been.

 

I woke up alone... alone with my thoughts and regrets for what has been lost, the regrets of losing my family, my house and most everything that has meant anything to me.... I still have my health and friends but on a day like today they offer little consolation to what I feel...... I miss my wife and best friend yet she goes on with her life like I wasn't even there for most of it... When will the hurt and pain go away.... when will I be able to let go and accept thiings as they are. I am finding it difficult to do just that. I miss her voice, the way she smelled and her smiles from across the room....

 

I miss my life that i had. Now I must move on to a life full of uncertainties, the unknown wondering if I will ever be able to love to the extent that I have.... My heart hurts and will for sometime........

 

I miss you D.... and love you like no other....... Happy Anniversary....... I will think of you today !!!

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Celticmoon Celticmoon:

It will take time,.....

Sending you a hug Sending you a hug

It will take time, but there is someone new and special out there waiting for you.  Start looking for her soon - this one obviously does not deserve you. 

maria579 maria579:

hang in there...

Sorry to hear about your loss.  Stick with the Tools Program - it will help you in every area of your life!  I'm on Day 48 - it just gets better every week...

kmcm kmcm:

You will be ok.

Everyone is different.  It may take you a little time.  Its ok,  Your buddy spyfox is making progress.  Have you read the book he has suggested?  I ask, because I saw a huge turnaround for him after he had done so.  Its going to be ok.  Its one day at a time... just put one foot, in front of the other.

 

Hang in there!

I hear you I hear you

curly.sue curly.sue:

Thanks for the message - hang in there

It was so nice to get your message, sorry things are so hard for you just now. Hang on to what was good about your marriage, hard to do just now I know, but what was good was good , don't let the hurt at the moment   destroy what was worthwhile.

 

It might not feel like it but you will get through this  - we survive this stuff and come out stronger. 

 

If it doesn't offend you I'll pray for you ( and I'm really not as sanctimonious as this sounds!)

 

Sue

Skinman Skinman:

Thank you all....

 

Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement, it means a lot to know that there are people out there who care for a total stranger. Yesterday was a difficult day but today is a new one, an opportunity to put the past behind me and focus on my future and living as happy as I can.

 

Thank you all for your kind words and prayers...