So I just finished week 6 - or did I???? I'm starting to feel overwelmed, like there is not enough time to focas on todays lesson and make it part of my life habits before the next lesson comes along. Sometimes the exercises take a lot of thought and self exploration to answer honestly - not hitting that FINISHED button before I leave for work will put me behind a day, but hitting it before recording the exercises may risk them not getting finished at all. Some things never became a daily habit - reading, reciting greatful list, afformations, visualization - I do them when I think about it. Then making up new things every day EVERY DAY - Something I would do if I liked myself more AND, What can I do to make my life better TODAY -AND I can't lie to myself so something I am going to change AND attack an excuse, AND a complaint AND the daily lesson .......... JUST WOW. I find I am way behind.
I DO: Wake myself up with a splash of water, smile and brush my teeth, I am on time for work, I do brush my teeth more, I do drink my water, catch myself before complaining or issuing an excuse, I do listen to my inner voice, I do SMILE, I do treat people better, I do see changes in my attitude and my confidence in myself
SSOOOOOOOO do I still log in and complete TOOLS day by day - or do I stop until I catch up???? I think if I stop, I risk not restarting and I really enjoy TOOLS. But I feel like I'm cheating myself not finding a way to do it correctly .......... I promised myself I would not object to anything asked of me, but I didn't anticipate the lack of available personal time to work on tools each day.
I'm going away on a trip this weekend - no computer access, no tools checklist - long overdue trip. So let's see what happens after my brain gets a rest.
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Relax
All of these things are normal. Take the week off on your vacation. The things you've learned will stay with you. Take a walk and be happy and proud of all of your progress. When I started practicing Lamrim (dharma meditations) the Buddhist Nun that was teaching me said: "don't stop practicing even if you don't fully get it. Just keep going because it is harder to start again." And its true, don't backtrack, you've gone too far and achieved so much, I don't want you to lose it. But you won't in a week so enjoy yourself.
Be Happy
You're just a few days behind me. I understand how you're feeling. I haven't been able to incorporate everything on the checklist into my life either, but the intention is not to make you feel bad for what you have not done. Feel GOOD that you've made the changes you have. We aren't robots. Some stuff will stick, some stuff won't. Maybe you don't need the stuff that doesn't stick just now. Or ever.
I stopped using a lot of stuff in the toolbox simply because I have taken over my own life (thanks to Tools) and have incorporated gratitude and reflection into my own routine. I don't write down excuses and complaints anymore. I don't make them chronically. I am very aware when I make an excuse or complaint and work on them in the moment. That's the time to do it for me, not when I can get back to Tools the next morning.
Yes, enjoy your weekend. Look at what you've done, not what you haven't done.
SLOW DOWN
Slow down..take a deep breath ...let your life take its course..take what I call baby steps..take one day at a time...relax if you slip stand up again...after all we are humans with our faults...make a mistake move along do not look back foward..keep saying I know I can do it but at my pace..if you think you need more time with the lesson so take another day the main thing is doing it...
you can do it
Barbie