" An interesting point is that the
increase in self-esteem takes place
the moment they begin to take control
and get into action. Even before any
results are realized, they begin to feel positive.
You see, it’s not the weight,
or the bills, or the career that’s causing
your negative attitude; it’s the lack of
action. As soon as you get into action
and feel that you’re taking control, your
world begins to change, and with that
power you can then realize actual
results."
Coach Steele
I have to say.....when I read this
it was so powerful! It stuck out
to me, and it witnessed it was
true!
All my problems are my fault, my doing.
Even if it comes from somewhere else
initially, it's my decision to keep it around,
or accept it into my emotional realm.
I am in trouble financially, it's my fault.
I'm in real trouble with the tax men,
and it's my fault.
If I had relationship trouble, it was my
fault for staying, or not changing, or
not forgiving, or whatever it was.
The whole point Coach makes about
feeling badly because of as lack of
control is so True!
This is an ember for me today, and
I'm going to carry it around with me
in my thought life today, and listen to
my Inner Voice.
It makes me ask the questions, why
do I choose to live in this lack of
control in certain areas?
Why do I consider some things to be
alright, or some suffering to be my
"way of Life?"
What is it that made me choose the
various levels I live at?
I'm not dumb, I'm not crippled or forced
to be the way I am. I have a brain, and
thinking about it reminds me of things
Dear ol' Mom used to say like, "You
have a brain, use it!"
I'm getting excited about future
strength.
I'm getting excited about healing my
life myself, and being Proactive.
I'm getting excited about being
in places in life that I've never been
before.
New Ways, New Grooves, New Powers!
Will I really stay changed?
Will I not self sabotage again and
keep myself "low" where it's safe,
and it's not too far to fall?
I am also reminded about something
another coach said once about the
way we not only suffer under the
bad things we allow, but we can
sabotage the success we are afraid
of!
If I think of myself as totally successful
or even just marginally successfull in
areas I've never allowed myself to enjoy,
and staying there long term, I admit
it feels really unimaginable!
Really, me?
Wealthy, traveling, in shape, and
happy? Can I? Will I? Would I?
The whole reason we are here is
because we all want that which we
know is right htere for us, but our
thinking keeps it from us!
It's a few distinctions and changes
short and long term, and our lives
can be just wonderful!
Imagine that!
Well, I'm off to another day of
checklist oreinted new directions!
I'm still clean and sober. What 4 days?
Hallelujah!
I am glad about my decision to
make myself and my journey
public. I am not ashamed that
I am human. I am not ashamed
that I have a few faults, and that
I have messes to clean up.
So what!
You know my face, and name, and
I've got some good things and some
bad things ! So do you!
We are all the same gingerbread, just
different shapes. Thats why Coach can
talk to all of us, because it's basically
all the same Universal Truths.
I now have the support and even Love
from a new bunch of friends !
I now even have the collective opinion
coming at me of the group that keeps
me honest and "beholden" to keep
my word to myself, and my
commitment to my Success here.
As far as I know, we all have the
same things in our hearts and
souls, all the debauchery and
evil and all the Virtue and Glorious
likeness of our creator.
Isnt it what we allow, just like Coach
said?
When I leave Tools as a graduate, I'll
not only have a new life, but a bunch of
new friends, even just here online, and
new respect for others, and them for
me!
I see the private settings and see
some saying, "I stopped coming to
Tools, and I feel badly....."
It's just not for me!
It's like going to a 12 Step group and
staying in the back room, never
seeing anybody, or never participating.
No....if I'm going to do this, then I'm
either 100%, or not really in the game!
Talk about setting myself up for
a big bump! Coach said that we
all lie to ourselves, and that it's
a foundation of all of our troubles!
If I wasn't open and honest
here, and not ashamed that I have
a few weeknesses, I would not really
be being totally out there!
I don't think one person here thinks
less of me because I was an addict,
or that I am public, but I think they
would be more disappointed in me
if I went back to my own misery now
that I've thrown down the gauntlet,
and committed to it!
Personally, I don't think tools
should be private! Thats my own
opinion!
When I think about the things
that famous people in the world are
caught doing in the news is really
shameful!
There's a Greek saying, that
shameful people
have no "Esteema" , no Pride!
No......the only way I will really hold
my head up is if I really do put it out
there, and become accountable to
myself, and to the Greater Total
Consiousness of this total group!
The greatest shame in my eyes
would be if I started this for free, and
hid stuff and then fell away, never
having really really changed these
huge life issues!
I would really feel badly then!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
There's a song I really Love by Henry
Rollins, called
"Shine"
Im dying to get it here in mp3 form
so you all can hear it!
He says.....
"If I listened to all the things that they
said to me, I wouldn't be here...
and if I took the time to believe
all the tiny little arrows shot my way,
I wouldnt be here...
The ones who don't do anything
are the ones who put you down,
and you spend your entire life
walking around in the land of
self doubt.
Just when you start to doubt
yourself, the Real World will eat
you alive!
It's Time, It's Time.....It's Time
To Align Your Body With Your
Mind!
It's your own time, (and you know
it's true!)
I'm talking to you, Your own time
to shine is NOW,
If you think you've got 100 years
to fool around, YOU"RE WRONG !"
It's your own time, it's time to
Shine, Shine, Shine ! ! ! ! !
Henry Rollins
Rollins Band
Album: Weight
I love it!
Inspiring !
I love you guys, I Love Tools !
Smilinsteve
