'Thank You' Devlin, My Friends, and Tools !

Little did I know what I was getting into

the day I came across Tools To Life!

My life had been becoming more and

more desperate and difficult. Work is

really slow here in Western

Massachusetts, and the Spring

speed up of work hasn't happened

yet. I was struggling a lot !

My relationships were difficult, and not

really supportive in the way I needed,

especially since a lot of them were

codependent.

I had the inkling that being here would

mean tough but exciting changes like

leaving drugs and self medicating behind,

budgeting, and other good stuff.

Well, I've quit smoking, and Im really

excited knowing that I've laid the

foundation from which all others can

flow.

Substance abuse is the first thing

that gotta go, and thats it!  I really

saw addiction as a vortex of water,

speeding up and swallowing my life,

like a flushing toilet. The lie is

"Oh...it's no problem, I can handle it!

yeah, Right !

I think if a pot smoker could know what

theyve spent on pot in the past months,

it would floor them ! I probably could pay

off my IRS debt with what I've spent on

pot in my life, or bought a new car, bass,

and amplifier!

In light of my quitting, I've started a

group for those that know they should

quit, and would enjoy some support.

Check it Out! I'm here for you daily.

Ive had a terrible night, restless and

awake frequently during the night.

I arose at 4 AM and started Tools.

Im tense and testy, but it's a GOOD

HURT, because it signals the BAD

position pot put me in, and signifies

the way out!

So...the tougher it is, the more it

means I should keep going, and get

past it!

Now, Im also really really

jazzed about myself and my life now,

cause I know all other things are

possible! Im the type that gets going,

really excited and productive.

Once I saw a commercial about

quitting drugs that had Michael J Fox

on it. He was standing in front of a row

of doors, and he was saying that

quitting drugs was the only thing

that could enable you to open the

other doors of your life....but they

would stay shut if I didnt!

That commercial realy stuck with

me and bothered me for a long time.

It still does!

Im really really wanting to

express my Thanks to Coach

Steele, and the entire Tools

team!

I probably would never embrace these

complete changes in my life, at least

this many and for this long a time if I

were left to my own devices.

Also the very "collective consciousness"

of the body of friends here all doing the

same thing and being supportive is

the best thing here! It's the Wisdom and

concensus that is like a perfect guide.

I have a love in my heart for each and

every one that has taken the time to

get involved with me, and Cheer me on.

I really really appreciate each and every

boost, cheer, and comment, even if its

a lovingly administered point that

"smarts" for my own good !

Bring it on !

The Bible has a passage that speaks

about how we will "smooth out" each

others rough edges, and that "it will

not break our heads!"

No...it wont, and I'm grateful for the

support sooooooo much!

Now it's on to reading......lucky

thing is Ive got many books I

bought and never read! Better than

a library and book store! I love books.

I always have my bookshelves

everywhere I move. I must!

Books are great friends, and Ive

benefited a lot from reading. There's

a saying: Readers Are Leaders.

So.....if you know pot smokers,

if you know some "yutes" that

would benefit from quitting pot....

Tools and my group are here for

them! Pot is a life waster, and

NOT what it appears to be on

the surface! It's insidious and

very life changing for those that

cant stop using.

I often wondered, I thought I

chose this because it was a choice,

and it felt good.

But really, when I looked at myself and

any other pot smoker, we all HAD to

have it to feel better, and to deal

with life.

Therefore, we were self medicating,

and not just enjoying anymore !

So.............

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You So MUCH!

I am So Grateful.

These are LIFE changes going on here!

So Awesome !

Kudos to Coach and The Team !

Smilinsteve

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