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Birth Date: Wed, Jul 25 1956

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Turners Falls MA, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

Schools: NE Univ.

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" I'm So Mad I Could Spit Bullets ! "

 

 

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  Smilinsteve

Mon, Jul 21 07:52 AM

" I'm So Mad I Could Spit Bullets ! "

 

 

 

 

 

....not really!

 

I will never forget hearing a

customer say that once about

a situation she had.....I thought

it was such a funny way to express

anger, and thought it funny that

she had an expression that supported

her ability to be angry.

 

I never forgot it.

 

I've been checking off the ability to

be 'angry' box on my Self Assessment

Tool as a 9 or 10......really, it's not one

of my problems!

 

I've grown to like the way we

(the church)used to see anger

as a tool, that one could "take

out of your pocket", use it, and

put it back. "

 

Even the Living God in the Old

Testament struck His people with

hemmaroids and terrible things

for disobedience....with a type of

anger called Indignation.

 

Righteous Anger.

 

Even Jesus is said to have cleared the

temple with a whip, (the animals)and 

overturned the tables for changing

the House Of God into place of greed.

 

It's an inevitable and normal part

of the human psyche, but as Coach

points out, leads to road rage, and

all the other unprofitable situations

that we seem to love ruining our

day with.

 

I've always thought of myself as a

person who didnt have a problem

with anger.  I hate it, and it may be

because I had a family member who

was always over angry at everything,

especially misplacing it to my Brother

and I when it was really over someone

else.

 

For instance, when another mate is

angry or chooses an unresourceful

way to deal with an issue, I'm so

dissapointed.

 

It seems to me that when the

issue was revealed, that

ruining the whole evening and

night and making the atmosphere

tense and uncomfortable was

such a shame and such a loss,

and hardly ever worth the issue!

 

And when there is an arguement,

(which I believe is in and of itself a

natural and normal part of living),

I've always maintained that I NEVER

start throwing in the past, or say

hurtful things and make it personal.

I dont like arguing out of control

just because Im on one side.

 

I want Truth.

 

I stay right on point, and try to end

up finding out the Truth, and admitting

I'm wrong and apologizing, or staying

true to myself if I'm right, and defend

my position, but not to the extent that

I hurt my relationship.....after all.....

is saying I Love You for when it's easy,

or is it for when you have to be

honest, forgiving, long suffering, and

patient?

 

Love Is Not Easily Provoked, or at least

it shouldn't be!

 

As I was going to write this blog, I

went to my Darling mate, and asked

her if I am an angry person, or if I

was deluding myself about this

subject.

 

She answered right away and said....

"No you dont have an anger issue at all"

Sometimes you seem frustrated for a

second, but for the most part you are

patient."

 

Phew!

 

I think I get hurt or offended, or

dissapointed, but I rarely feel like

anything merits getting outwardly

angry!

 

A quick story about anger and patience;

  

                          * * *

 

There was a Father and Son on a train,

and there was an obnoxious man close

to them who picked out the Father

to vent himself on.

 

He was rude and crude, taunting the

man over nothing. The son couldn't

believe that his Father bore with him

quietly, and didnt return tit for tat.

 

After they left the train, the son asked,

"Dad, how could you stand that man,

why didnt you let him have it?"

 

The Father answered, "That poor man

has to live with himself for his whole life,

I only had to bear him for a few minutes"

 

                          * * *

 

It seems that we are conditioned to

cheer revenge and violence. It seems

that we are taught to cheer the eventual

come uppance someone deserves in

movies when someone finally get's

fed up and lets em have it!

 

It's too bad. Now it's going the other

way, when people feel they are wronged,

they go to their place of work and

brutally gun down innocent people

because of an imagined wrong......or

even a true complaint!

 

Where are we headed?

 

The only other thing I dont seem to

have as a problem is I'm always prompt,

or just a tad early. If I make a painting

appointment, it's always one of the

points that impresses the client,

compared to other tradesmen. My

Mother taught me that, and really

never was angry at me for being late

as a child, but for not calling.....

 

Boy, did she ever burn my ears for that!

 

I'm thankful for my parents. When  I

think back, I'm glad they took time

to teach me good habits, and respect.

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

I've been clean from pot since July

12th, my Moms Birthday. Thats 10

days.

 

I now have 3 members in my Quit

Smoking Pot Support group, and have

just included a series of good questions

to any and all drug users, questions

that bugged me while I used.

 

These are a really good starting point,

and can be used hopefully by all those

here that wish to be free, or by parents

who wish they could help a child.

 

http://toolstolife.com/groups/view/Quit_Smoking_Pot/discussions/view/8472/

 

 

 

"Love, Love, Love,

Love Is All You Need....."

 

the Beatles

 

 

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I agree...

all you need is love...love is all you need! Hang in there Steve, things are going to get better and better and better and better and better ....well .... you get the idea right?