Clutter in my life

 Winter days, long and drearie.  Even the cat doesn't want to go outside.  I wanted to stay in my nest for the whole day.  But this is a great day and I will soon have reached past my morning depression.  The thing I really don't like about being single is the morning.  It is the only time that I could actually be lonely.    Big Girls don't cry and so I will find a way to accept that I live alone. And I will find the resolve to stay that way.  Mornings are the one time I allow the thought of sharing my life again to enter my head.  While I drink my coffee and check the email.  Once a phyco has turned the world upside down, it is not possible to ever be sure again what is real and what is a lie.  I think I will learn how to rely only on myself.  Now that is sad.  It is also optomistic.  Because I can do it....but I will have another coffee first.

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Tags: solitude, single, morning, Depression