Hey, what's up? So I'm 17. I have only a little while to go before I'm finally an adult. Life is scary. Right now of course, is when everything decides to blow up in my face. I believe in living in the moment and I have been doing that. But sometimes it's hard not to dwell on the past or anxiety and other things I feel. I am trying to stay positive though, even if life is bringing me down!

My past?heres the basics.  I am terribly awkward. I have never had a whole lot of friends. My life was great until I started high school and I got depressed. Things where getting better though. Until it fell apart again, but who do I have to blame other then myself. I realize my mistakes and boy have I made a lot of them. I don't hate myself, I always try to find something good about me even when I feel like I've done the unspeakable. Life is an adventure. A sick twisted awkwardly horrible but yet fascinating adventure.  I need to figure out what to do with my life. Everything is pressure. The balance in my life is off. One little wrong movement can send another person spiraling out of control. I just want to be happy. I want to do things my way! But I know I can't always have it like that. But from time to time,,, I do feel like I deserve to have things go my way for a change instead of having to make sure things go another persons way just to avoid conflict.so that's my past and trust me....there is so much more I haven't explained. 

My future...  I just want to be happy . That is what I want and I am going to work to get it.