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Birth Date: Mon, Jun 02 1958

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Western Kentucky, United States (map)

I am: Single & Dating

Schools: Brandon High School Alumni ..Class of 1976, Brandon Florida

Jobs: Circle K Corporation..Accounting.., Teco Energy for ten years before disabiltiy in 2006


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I want to live to see my son graduate college and see my daughter happy in life. I would like to fall in love again. and have a good relationship with my partner. I would like to be able to physically do more than i am able to now. I want to continue to develop a good relationship with God.
To find out what is causing me to gain weight i have not changed what i eat ..i do have obstructive sleep apnea so i know diabetes could be a factor..i need to find out what is going on ..

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Sat, Dec 19 04:49 AM

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Well its Saturday , and Christmas is around the corner..and i think for the first time since i can remember even with the lose of my parents in 2006 i have cried more than ever this year. I find that my limitations physically have totally seemed to stop what was a holiday of joy and happiness for many years for me. My daughter is here visiting she will return home the end of the month. My son is out of high school for a couple of weeks..and while i try so very hard just to feel blessed than we are all here. I cant help missing the fact is i have a garage full of Christmas things and not one thing has been put out for the season. I was sick almost a month with flu garbage even after having the shots to protect me. And the bone pain is worse this winter than i believe ever before. I have bought the gifts many still have to be wrapped. I mentioned to my daughter the other day she is 29 how bad i felt about not being able to do it all as i once did i have been watching a few home movies i made from years past. And all my daughter had to say is well we are establishing our own traditions..i felt like saying ya what is that not to celebrate Christmas anymore..all i know is i have asked both my son and daughter to help with getting the decorations out even if the outside doesnt happen just want a christmas tree put up in the house and help me maybe get a few things set out as i did for years so many i cant even count. I know the true meaning of christmas but i also believe that its purpose is alot the celebration of love and of family..and i was the rock of mine well now i am more like just mud i guess..i just dont know i am trying so hard not to have my own private pity party..but it is not stopping the hurt and tears i feel. I know i can only try to keep the spirit of the season in my heart for now...and pray for any strenght the good lord might send my way thru the season to at least get a good dinner on the table. I am realizing more all the time i need to start to make a new years goal of focusing on myself for a change..my children i have given every ounce of love and anything they could want for in the past..to only find out it seems that its not really important what i feel or think about pretty much anything..i know i have to start trying to find and making a new path for my life ahead. My goal first is to see about improving my health in anyway possible ..there wont be a cure all but any better quality of life at this point i would welcome.  And i need to start getting out more than just to the store and involve myself more in the community and make a few friends..i am tired of being alone and just idol. The winter wont last forever though right now it seems so i know. And i will be stronger again in the spring. I have been dealing with this for a few years now with the seasonal change of my body i just got to let my self roll with it and try not to get to disheartend over the spoiled children i have raised and hope that maybe if i start worrying about myself more maybe they will notice i am not just there for them. I need to have a life too...well todays blog is more of a venting for me..I hope everyone who celebrates Christmas and even those who dont find peace and love in the up coming year. God bless all of us.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year..tools of life friends..

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