Things seem to be getting better...I think.

So I started this thing because of my wife Violet who seemed to be making some decent progress with it. I'm not very far in but I think some of the lessons are starting to sink in. Or at least when I do the stupid, self destructive things I've always done I am given pause. I am actually thinking of different ways in which I might handle things. Thinking about what I eat. Poking around on job boards looking for a new opportunity.

As a quick aside, most job boards on the net are woefully under-representing non-major markets. Monster.com seems to deny all knowledge about any city with less than 5 million people. Most of the other's aren't any better.

Back to the issue at hand. I think I'm starting to feel a difference in my attitude and outlook. Hope has been a rare commodity for me recently but I feel it seeping in around the edges of the airtight walls I've built around myself. Feels cool and calming.

One other thing that I noticed the other day while smiling at myself in the mirror the other day was that I am in fact not bad looking. Although right at the moment I need a haircut and a shave so mileage may vary. I've also kind of started to believe myself when i say I'm smarter and better than I give myself credit for.

I think that's all I have for tonight. Felt good.

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