Member Since: 07/02/07
Last Login: 01/08/09
Program Progress: Day 43
It sounds like you are disappointed and frustrated with yourself more than anything else. You can't seem to figure out why you take this type of treatment from your job. If you have taken all of your issues to the powers that be and nothing has been changed, than you have your answer. You look for another job with a better company OR you do something else with your life. If you are no longer happy as a copier technician than you must pursue what does make you happy. I was in your space about six months ago and the best thing that happened to me was I was fired. The company did not want to fire me, but I rigged it in such a way they had to. I was that unhappy with my life and job at the time. I stayed at that job out of fear. I was afraid of working as a writer exclusively and I gave myself a ton of excuses to stay. The sad part was how my frustration affected others. We do not live in bubbles and our frustrations spill out into all levels of our lives. You owe to yourself and ones that love you to be happy and pursue happiness at all costs.
Time to move on to a new career I'd say...you don't deserve to be treated this way and you do deserve to find fulfillment and happiness in your work. Time to quit!