Mmm ... at first I thought about putting todays entry under the Me Only section in Privacy but to be truthful Tools is about helping others and being true and honest with oneself so here goes.
Firstly please forgive me all of you generous and loving souls who have chosen to add me to your myfriends I will understand if you decide to block me or take me off your list after reading this entry.
My father was a biker when I was growing up and for as long as I can remember him and his mates would come around home and have biker parties 3 or 4 times a week till the wee small hours (when he was home from sea as he was also a fisherman) there was plenty of violence, alcohol and pot around and other drugs, need I say more. Okay a big deep breath.... at the age of 16 I tried my first bit of pot and for the last 22 years I have smoked pot almost daily, except throughout my pregnancies with my 3 little ones. I never was or have been a drinker but would always smoke pot.
Well since doing Tools for life at the beginning I continued to lie to myself and pretend that everything was alright, then on December 30th my grandmother passed away and it was like a switch being turned on, I decided that to help others and move on with my life well first I had to be honest and true to myself so that was it!!!
I stopped smoking pot.
Now I am on day 12 and I refuse to bend to my previous weak will and indulge ever again. I can see a new door opening and a path clearing that leads to a more positive and truthful journey for myself and family.
I thank you Devlyn for developing Tools - such a powerful system, something that has helped me to see within myself and believe in myself again after so long - aw crap now I can't see the screen seems tears flow alot more freely these days.
Anyway I am putting in this entry to be true to myself and also in the hope that this helps another person get back on the right path should they choose to.
You can do this and you will once again feel empowered in your life.
Love and Light
Victoria
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This Is Great!
Thank you for your courage to share. You have nothing to be ashamed of. What counts is where you are and that you are taking control and making positive changes. I'm very proud to know you, to have you part of the Tools Site and proud of your courage to change.
Cheers to you! If you ever need anything let me know. You are really going in the right direction, keep going!
*jumping excited up and down, cheering you on*
Hi, Victoria!
Honest and brave with self.
YEAH!! I am so impressed. With your honesty, your courage and this fabulous change you have made. I too had things from my childhood (the late sixties and early seventies) to overcome. I don't think having things to change and fix is anything to be rejected for. I think when people are not willing to be honest, or make a change, then maybe it's time to ask myself if this is a relationship that isn't going anywhere. But what you are doing says "I VALUE ME! so I want to do this differently." I hope the program can be a BIG support for you in continued success.