Can happines cause depression?

It just struck me.

At the interview for the job I now have I was, among other things, asked where I saw myself in the future.

My answer was:

1. This job, being able to do it well.

2. Live in the countryside, where it's quiet.

3. Buy a horse.

4. Make life as harmonic as possible for my daughter and myself.

Less than a year later I had:

1. This job, doing very well, got a good raise and wonderful co-workers.

2. Rent a house in the country with only a few, and very nice, neighbours. Not to far away from work.

3. A darling, well trained, but easily excited 18 year old swedish half blood jumper, who lightens up the life both for me and my daughter.

4. A self confident, proud and happy daughter who loves school, her horse, her home, and my new life partner.

5. A life partner who is more than I ever could wish for. He makes my life so easy. I had planned to live single from now on, but how could I not love this wonderful man.

The trick is; I have achieved all that I want in life. I feel panicked and undeserving of being so happy. At the same time I am scared of loosing it.

Where do I go from here? How do I stake new goals?

Yes, right now my long term goal is to rid myself of depression and to finish Tools.

I will try not to think beyond that at this point. I do have a few everydaygoals, most of which regard riding or gardening. I will try to focus on this for the time being, because I need to rediscover how to allow myself to be happy.

Hopefully I will find my goal during this course.

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