Wow two weeks have gone by. It seemed so fast and it's hard to believe! I have been doing really great with all of the new ways I have been treating life and more importantly how I have been treating myself and those who are around me. Not every day I know will be an easy one though, for instance this past Tuesday I kept myself very busy! I had cleaned at least three times more then I would for this day, to the point that when I sat down to read I had passed out on the couch for just a few minutes!
I had awoke to a phone call from my amazing boyfriend which made me smile. After the phone call I had gotten some energy back and couldn't wait for him to get home from work now in about 20 minutes or so. At this time I knew there was still a large load of clothes in the drier and went to go get them as I waited.
When my boyfriend arrived home I had a huge smile on my face and gave him an even bigger smile and a great big kiss (all while holding the last set of clothes in my arms) I noticed that his mood was a little less up beat then my own which is also normal for this day and the amount of work he puts in each day.
Instead of staying up beat and helping to bring him to my level of excitement like he had wanted I allowed myself to come right down and start to feel a little negative about life in general!
In the past when this has happened I was unable to get myself back up and be happy for a long time and then I would "beat" myself up for the rest of the day for allowing that type of behavior. I told myself today is no longer a day I'm staying in this feeling. I had expressed to my boyfriend that I was feeling down and excused myself from the room. Went to the bathroom and splashed my face with water asked myself how I was doing and told myself NO My attitude is my decision and I decide to have a great one because I am having a great day as I made sure to smile from ear to ear. As I walked toward the door I already felt my spirits coming back up and my mood beginning to brighten!