A Door Bursts Open

 Dear Treasures in my life:

'm wiped out and may be for a few days. HOWEVER, that's not the news! The news I am SO HAPPY to share with you is that last night at the Writers Guild meeting (which I have attended quiet as a mouse for some months now)...I got up and read. I read a piece I wrote quite a while ago which felt finished enough to present at my first
reading with this group. I had to do deep breathing just to keep myself there until my turn.

I was told it was "beautifully crafted" by the head of the board of directors whom I met and who read right after me. And a lady rushed up to ask if she could read it. She explained she felt jealous of my ability to create vivid images. These are both deep compliments.
Though I have often been uncomfortable around jealousy, it's a fact of the creative world and one I have become strong and mature enough to deal with, I believe. When I sat down, I enjoyed thoroughly the
readings that followed mine, from a profound contented sense of peace. Whereever people were on the scale in reaction to my work, that did not matter. I felt a joy in the power of words. I felt a joy in having broken through what has been a painful, empty place in my spirit, since a time it seemed my writing left me.

So! I want to share my happiness! I woke up smiling, today, with a little poem in my head. About jealousy. It is a poem about calling
forth in yourself your OWN capacities, making them blossom, instead of dwelling in envy. I'm not a good poet but I like this one so far.

I feel truly like a door that slammed shut has burst open. I feel I've begun to come "home" to myself. And now, to go pass out for a while. Sadly, happiness does not yet replenish my physical energy. Have a GREAT day.

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