Last night and early this morning I have been journaling about the negative and positive thoughts in my mind. This morning I am actively adapting a new affirmation into my life: I will look to find the good in EVERYTHING.
As a side note, I find today's topic to be uncannily similar to my thoughts I have been struggling with since last night. This was a crazy awesome synchronicity.
Today I learned something very valuable from a dream I had. I had a dream a few friends and I were in this ancient city where the citizens were trying to erase their past and become a totally new culture. They were basically going from a 'good' culture, to a 'bad' culture.
We were in disguise because if we let out our true identities we would be considered enemies and then bad things would happen. So, we were in this building and we found it difficult to leave because we were trying to keep up with appearances. We couldn't let our real identities show.
The leaders said ot us as new and prospective citizens we needed to go through training and learn their new creed and become disciplined. I knew this was our chance to get out of there. We were in this room with two elders/superiors. It the flick of my wrist I shot these little baby arrows at them with this medicine on the tips to knock them out. They fall splat on the ground and I notice a secret comparmtment in the wall. In it there is a half broken box made of bulsa wood and parchments from their 'bible.' I was very intrigued so I snatched it up as a souvenir. I also noticed on the wall there was another parchment with their creed written on it. I thought this was cool too and so I put it in my pocket too.
My companions looked at me like I was nuts. They asked me why I would take these things as keepsakes. I told them this, "Why and try to erase their memory? We do not agree with their policies, but why try and eradicate them from our memories? We must embrace them because they are apart of ourselves. If we try and reject different parts of ourselves we will only create internal conflicts and never feel whole. We can acknowledge that no, we do not agree with them, but embracing their memory doesn't mean we are becoming like them. We must first be comfortable and trust ourselves enough to accept and embrace parts of ourselves that we don't agree with. It brings us peace."
I never thought I could learn such a powerful lesson from a dream and what was also surprising was that I said that. My dream avatar said that. I finally realized after that dream that if I notice myself thinking negatively I can't just push it from my mind, I need to acknowledge, accept and embrace it. It is as much apart of myself as my positive thoughts. When I embrace my negativity I feel whole and at peace with myself. I acknowledge that I choose positivity but I can't just cancel out negativity all together. You need to take the good with the bad and the bad with the good.
This is about one of the greatest lessons I've learned from my wiser-self. Now I know I should listen more often.
