I showed a lot of promise growing up. i did well in high school except for a couple little burps with the law. I went to an automotive school but dropped out due to being kicked out of my apartment. this is when i found out my girlfriend at the time was pregnant with my oldest son. i came home and got a job to support my new family. we were very happy for the first 2 years after he was born. then we split up after she decided she had to sew some wild oats, so to speak. we got back together shortly after and then found out she was pregnant again. once my youngest son was born she decidied to do it all over again and started leaving for days at a time and leaving the kids behind with me. i started thinking and putting thing together and figured out on my own that my youngest son wasnt mine. this caused some problems with me. i started using various drugs, i guess to numb my feelings. i was constantly trying to work things out with her in hopes to have my full family back.since then she and i have tried a few times and now have figured out that she cant stabilize herself to be up to my standarsds i guess. since weve split up this last time ive again turned to substance to make me forget. im trying to work on this to this day.

i hope to help myself out of this depression problem. i also have a problem with managing money that comes from the drug problem. i also want to be the father i can be instead of the father that settles for what i am. id also like to find the confidence to better my job and my attitude in general. i would like to be less dependant on my family and more self-sustaining.