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Member Since: 01/04/10
Last Login: 05/10/10
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Program Progress: Day 5
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Cake, Beastie Boys, Clutch, NoFx, Soul Coughing, Blue October, Bouncing Souls, Cypress Hill, Band of Horses, Primus, Eminem, Social Distortion, Black Label Society, Bloodhound Gang, Jack Johnson, Kottonmouth Kings, KT Tunstall, OK GO, Pennywise
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On the beach, by the beach, someplace near a beach. Massachusetts, Emily's house, my room. Driving my car. In the woods. Old cemetaries.
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The pacific, cherry blossoms in Japan, my sons grow old, and someone smiling back at me with so much love it hurts.
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Road trips, travel, foodie, art, horror movies, zombies, things that make me laugh, people that make me laugh
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fear?
Alyson I don't really know what your past relationship history is or anything but from what you say here it kinda sounds like you may have fear from past relationships that is paralyzing you and maybe in your head you feel this one will be just like the others? (sorry if im wrong, just going out on a limb here.)
But anyways, I would say you need to LET GO out things in the past. The fears, doubts, etc..(believe me Im working on my own) and let LOVE IN. :)
let go and let love in.
take care
I believe...
I think there may be some truth to that but I honestly think that what happened was that the initial shock of his change of heart and deciding to give us a chance while I was getting ready to say goodbye to him because he hadn't wanted to be in a relationship, caught me so off guard that it was a shock to my system. I believe that what was going on was anxiety attacks throughout the week. I went to my doctor today who believed it as well. Sent me home with some xanax. I took one and already feel like I am back to myself. Not drugged out but just me! I don't like to take meds and only take them when absolutely necessary. i don't have addictive issues and I know that I only use as needed. Right now I just need something to help level me out. I have a ton of coping mechanisms that I have learned throughout the years to help deal with my depression but none of them were helping. I know when I need to ask for help and luckily it seems to be working right now. I may even be able to get a good nights sleep.
Thank you for your advice about letting go though. I do think that I may have some baggage left there that needs to go and will be working on it immediately. This guy deserves the best me that I can give him and I deserve it too. :)
take care and thanks again!