Right now, except for this one big thing, I'm pretty happy.  I met my wonderful boyfriend, Ian, in Las Vegas two years ago.  He lived in New York and I grew up in Massachusetts.  Finally, after a year, we got an apartment together on Long Island. I'm a waitress at Runyans.  I have a cat whose been with me through good and bad.  Ian loves him too.  I just have one bad problem that I'm really trying to get rid of but its so hard.  I'm addicted to pain killers.  I never thought it would take a hold of me like this.  Today is my first day not taking them, and I hope yesterday was my last.

Let's start off with me graduating from high school in 2002.  Basically from the age of 16, I have been a rebellious child.  I got into alot of different drugs.  All of my aspirations and everything I wanted to do in life went out the window because of my drug use.  I quit college and just went down hill.  But my parents were always there for me no matter what.  My past really isn't something I like to think about too much.  I have alot of regrets. But eventually I quit doing all of those bad drugs and got my life to where I want it right now.  Now I just have this one big problem, and I need help.

I have so many hopes for my future.  First things first, I want to be pill free.  I won't get anywhere in life unless I'm pill free cause it also takes all of my money that I make.  I'm starting college again next July, and I want to become an ultrasound diagnostics technician.  I would love to eventually get married, move back to Mass. with Ian and buy a house and start a family with him.  I know its gonna take awhile for all of that to happen, but i know it will as long as I stop taking these goddamn pills.