I'm really battling at the moment. Why? I don't know. Even posting to my blog is hard work today - it's taken me a good 3 hrs to actually do it, even though nothing (other than myself) has prevented me from sitting here and typing this.
Last night I hit quite a low. My business has taken a new path and a new venture is in progress. My previously sleeping business partner is taken a more active role. The work the new venture will provide will eventually need 3 people, but two of us will work hard to save the business money. Or so I thought, obviously there aren't going to be thousands from day one, but that's the risk of being in business. My partner says she will take another job until the business makes her a substantial wage. So, I am left with the workload of 3 people.
I might seem irrational, but it truly seems very unfair. I'm questioning whether this venture was a good move and whether I will be any further forward financially in 5 years. I'm working constantly, but will I see the benefits?
Many of my friends have become distant, purely because they believe being in business is not what should be pursued. So I feel at a loss there.
My family are directly involved, so I can't turn to them. And I'm single.
Besides this, my sister has a severe weight problem and is waiting to undergo a gastric bypass. She's crying out for help but is so self destructive that her cries turn to screaming, name calling and general abusiveness.
My head feels clogged with nothingness and I can't clear it. I need to clear it - the shop is open in 3 weeks.
And to top it all, I feel like I keep failing myself.
