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Birth Date: Sat, Feb 15 1958

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Roslyn Heights New York, United States (map)

I am: Single & Dating

Schools: Suny at Farmingdale College; Long Island University

Jobs: marketing company; now physically challenged

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to return to active society from being a recluse for over 10 years
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Wed, Sep 03 11:29 PM

Realization: Admitting This Is Tough

 Now this of itself may not sound like a breakthrough, however, it is foe me.  I've realized I haven't been putting in the real effort to really change my life.  Actually, I've come to the realization that I've been my own worst enemy throughut my life>  I've been stubborn and fixed in what I only wanted to do such as what time I get up, what I eat, what i only believe is best for myself.  In all actuality, I've been very selfish, negligent, unresponsible, and uncaring of myself.  The worst part is I've done all this to myself, there's no one else to blame here but me.  I've been a very good manipulator and actress throughout my life on so many levels.  Whatever I've needed (mostly due to my physical needs)  I had to strive to make sure I was taken care after, but supressing myself has only lead me to not trusting people, not believing people, not learning to really love -- first myself in a healthy way, then others by allowing them to reach out to me.  There's so very much I've come to recognize and realize and it all hurts so very deeply it's just so difficult for me to get it all down here.  I feel an emotional wreck, BUT I need and MUST work all this through and succeed to wheel among the living and have the sun warm my skin straight through to my soul and heal my heart.

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Dangermannz Dangermannz: 2008-09-04 02:23:49

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Keep working through the program. I know it will make a bit difference but all of it it will make a difference and then you will start loving yourself maybe for the first time like it has been doing for me.

 

Don't be afraid of how powerful you are.

jojosgrl jojosgrl: 2008-09-04 15:59:47

says: We are all here for you, so don't be afraid to reach out to your new cyber network.  This is what Tools is about, learning a new way of thinking and being, and the Tools network has some of the most supportive people I have ever encountered.

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