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Birth Date: Sat, Apr 18 1987

Place of residence:
Gillette Wyoming, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

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Member Since: 09/26/09
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I grew up on a ranch outside of a coal mining town in Wyoming.  My parents had me when they were still kids themselves.  I lived w/my mom until I was seven.  Most of the time through those years I was cared for by my grandmothers because my mom was a druggie (emphasis on the was).  I moved out to the ranch w/my dad when I was in the second grade.  He remarried not long after that to provide me w/a stable mother figure.  She was far from stable (mentally).  My childhood was mostly uneneventful.  I loved the outdoors.  I loved to read.  And to write, both prose and poetry.  In high school is when life changed.  I discovered I was a lesbian.  I fell in love w/the 'rebel' of our school.  So I came out at 15 to a school of 300 closed minded, small town kids.  Got involved with partying and dipped my toes into the drug scene through  the girl I was in love with.  She jerked me around through our entire high school year.  She knew she had power over me because I loved her and she used it, she used me.  Until her parents finally sent her to rehab.  She came back changed, better.  And our relationship developed into an actual relationship.  At the end of our junior year we were told that only one of us could come back the next year.  That we caused too much of a disturbance in the school w/our lifestyle.  So we both left.  Moved out of our parents houses and in together and graduated from an alternative school.  After that we moved to Colorado for a year.  It was probably the best time of my life.  But we moved back here.  So that she could break up with me (which I didn't know at the time) and I would be around my family and have somewhere to go.  And then she broke up w/me.  And I lost my mind.  I went down a bad road.  I stopped really living.  Like a zombie I just went through the motions.  It took me two years to put myself back together.  Therapists, anti-depressants, anger management.  And I finally went to college.  Only for a year.  But being away and pursuing my future is what finally put that final piece of me back into place.  And becoming myself again is what finally got me her back.  Yes I'm back w/my ex because I truly believe that we are meant to be together.  She is the yin to my yang.  And that is where my story is at right now...

Update: Well that is where I was until I had an episode...again.  I got angry.  We got into a fist fight, I went to jail, lost girlfriend and my place to live.  That is where I am right now.  Getting better.  Focusing on my own future.

I joined TOOLS because:
 Jason Ellis advocates how it's worked for him on his show. I hope it will work for me.
You are offered your dream job. What job is it?:
 An archeological dig in Egypt.
My favorite wild animal is:
 Tiger, leopard, all the large predator cats.
Why (describe as much as possible):
 They are the perfect balance of beauty and power. When they hunt they run with such grace but when they take down their prey it's pure, powerful, animal instinct.
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
 It would be simpler to state the ones I don't like: all birds and all fish.
Why:
 Fish freak me out. They have ever since I was a kid. And a bird just doesn't seem like it would make a very cuddly pet.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
 Something spicy. I love spicy food. But he's the pro I'd let him surprise me.
Why:
 There is so much food out there that I don't even know about, but I bet I would love.
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
 Pink, Angelina Jolie, the Buddha, Jesus, Cleopatra.
Why:
 Pink and Angelina Jolie because I have major crushes on them. The Buddha to learn from. Jesus to ask he is the son of God. And Cleopatra because of my love of all things Ancient Egyptian.
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
 The Mediteranean
My perfect slice of pizza is:
 Pepperoni, jalapenos, and black olives
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
 Crown n Coke or a Dos Equis
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
 Iced upside down caramel macchiato w/an extra shot
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
 To spend my life w/my true love, to find inner peace, to travel the world as an archeologist
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring (separate by commas):
 Tool, Alanis Morissette, A Perfect Circle
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
 Plant trees
A sunset I remember:
 I can think of two sunRISES. One when I was a little kid out my grandma's living room window, I don't know why that one sticks in my mind. One with a friend after we had broken into an abandoned shop n partied in it all night. But no sunSETS.
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be:
 Shane from the L Word
Why:
 She gets all the ladies