No complaints, no complaints!!

Dayumn!!  What a good day for this lesson.  Here in PA, I work for the State in the welfare department.  I handle medical and food stamp benefits for others.  Well, our legislature is now 29 days late on passing a budget, and we aren't getting paid again until they do!

I had been saving up to put a down payment on a house/1st mo + security deposit to rent (depending on what I decide to do!), and now am finding that I have to use my savings to make sure my car isn't repossessed, or my phone turned off, etc.  Initially, I really want to complain about how unfair this is and how much it sucks to work a full-time job and not know when you're ever going to get paid for doing it.  However, I realize that eventually we will get paid back (hopefully they don't do it all at one time and then rack up the taxes on it!) and then I will be able to replace my savings.  I really hope a budget passes before I run out of money.

BUT... I was thinking that instead of complaining about where my life is right now, it all works out for the best!  I don't love being back home, but if I would've used that money to buy a house 3-4 months ago, I'd have NOTHING to fall back on!!! 

I am also trying to tune out the complaints of others.  It is amazing how quickly the negativity of others seeps into your brain and drags you along for the ride!!  I apologized to my cubby-mate today for ignoring her, but I had to tell her that all of her whining and moaning about the budget was bringing me down and I was going to take control of my feelings/attitude and not participate in the conversations any longer.  I didn't want to be rude, but I didn't want that negativity floating around me any longer today!

And, after I finished my water and appreciated my minty-fresh breath, I plugged in my iPod, started singing in my head, and finished more work than was on my "list" for the day.  I feel good; and the news is that the Governor, Senate & House are working on a plan to pay employees while the budget is still being ironed out.

So, I'm having a great day, I'm not complaining, and I realize that it was my decisions today that brought me to this point.  I know it won't always be easy, but I am committed to doing whatever it takes to bring out the best me that I've got.  And, I appreciate the boosts & support of my new co-Toolers.  I hope to be able to do the same for you all.

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