I wouldn't know where to start with my story.  So, I'll start with today.  I'm currently trying to juggle a few things: motherhood, marriage, organizing my life, and starting a business.  I'm not the most organized person in the world and I'm sure that has something to do with the other aspects of my life.  If I want to change the world, or have any influence for good in my family, business, than I have to change myself.  When I feel good about myself, I feel good about everything else around me.  I really look forward to creating a healthy life for myself as well as my family.  

I come from a big family of 12 kids.  Having 6 older brothers wasn't always a treat for me.  No, I feared them, and endured physical abuse as well as emotional abuse.  I don't blame them, neither do I blame my parents.  While I believe that my past played a big role in me being very reserved and self-conscious while growing up, it was also the change that came in my family in the later years that strengthened me.  I can draw strength from my past most of the time, and then there's occassions when I feel that life was so unfair, and that if things had been different, I would have been a more outgoing, successful person.  It's a reoccuring hurdle that I have to get over...this struggle for self.  But, I find it an awesome challenge that only makes me stronger as I make conscious decisions to overcome it.

I see a well balanced life for myself, and my family.  I see success as a wife, especially as a mother, and business owner.  I see happiness, peace, love, and joy in abundance because of the choices I'm making today to change my tomorrow.  I see a beautiful me, very confident, yet humble, honest and gentle.  I see a happy family who enjoy time spent with each other, who respect each other and the world around them.  I see a successful business and my husband working for personal enrichment and not because he's dependent on a job.  

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