Almost there...Stale Cupcakes!!!!

Here I am and I am a day away from finishing. Can't say I'm happy that I didn't do it every day. Can't say I'm happy I had a long hiatus from the tools site. But, one thing I learned about me is that I spend to much time trying to be there for everyone else. I am never there for me. And when I am, it's not enough. I did tools for me. I didn't do it how I set out to. I didn't finish it how I saw myself finishing it. Most likely because I chose to take care of everything and everyone else. above an beyond how I should take care of them. But I am about to graduate and that means a lot to me. 

I had this thing about cupcakes with someone I met on this site. Whoever made it to the finish line first would have a cupcake for the other person. Well he made it and I didn't. He waited there...and waited there...and waited there. I'm not sure if he's still waiting. Maybe he got a lil distracted and left. Guess I'll find out tomorrow. But if he's not there with a cupcake, even if it is uber stale, that's okay because I still did it...am doing it. You see...

...I quit my job. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't focus anymore and I just stopped. Then I stopped everything else. It's time for me.

I've added to tools. I've gone a couple of times to this drop in centre for mental health/ addictions/ disabilities. They run groups. It was recommended that I attend the CBT group. So I did. I just started. It's much like tools. Although I prefer tools and Coach makes it VERY engaging, group has it benefits. Like helping me stay on track. Coach told me it would be harder for me due my mental health diagnoses, but through tools I've learned that group is okay. It's no different than tools other than you are face to face with your peers. I've learned people in group are no different they just have different things they need to work on than I do. It's nothing to be ashamed of or afraid of. It's weekly plus, I'm not allowed to miss it like I can tools (because I'm so bad and miss that one on the checklist I made :-p ). Also, I met this guy there that I told about tools. He got so excited he went online right away. He is gonna give it a whirl. What does this mean for me? Well I can't swear by something and not do it myself. 

So, here is to all those working hard to better themselves and things. It doesn't matter what you do as long as its for yourself and for the better. It doesn't matter what road you take as long as you still get there. You may hit a road bump but you know you can pick yourself back up... And dammit, the tools crowd will help you keep going if you need a boost. They'll have a cupcake in hand at the finish...even if it is stale!

Cheers!

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