im 30 i live in altoona ia, i have a older gf that has cancer. i work at a feed mill (hate it!) dont get along with most of my family except for my mother. i drink ocassionaly. im a smoker and ocassionally smoke pot. i have a very low self esteem, little to no confidence in myself. i feel like im wasted potential. im in a weird place in my life. love my gf to death but sometimes wonder if this is where im supposed to be. i have no kids. she has 3. 2 older than me 1 younger all boys. kind of like my second family but not. no matter where im at i dont quite feel like i fit in. have some good friend but none i can talk to about serious stuff. i have a ton of demons that need to be taken care of in my live.

grew up with my single mother and grandparents. never knew or met my biological father.went to a small school in nebraska. played basketball in hs. never really fit in. people looked at me as a lesser person because i had a single parent and not much money. nearly every relationship ive been in has failed due to a girl cheating on me. went through major alchohol and drug abuse. went through treatment. did some other bad things in my life. have always had an inferiority complex. i dont know, lots of other things .

i dont know where im going, but i know where ive been. and it can only get better i hope.