Day 8 - Karma, Control, and Coffee

Hey guys!

So I pretty much took the weekend off.  It feels healthy to me to have made that kind of decision, and to give myself that kind of breathing room. Unfortunately, how that weekend off went emotionally feels much less healthy, at least for the most part. 

This weekend included tough "discussions" with parents that left me feeling somewhat out of control and misunderstood, reconnecting with some old friends in a bittersweet way because now I feel out of the loop with them, a general feeling of being a "project", and plenty of random and seemingly unwarranted tiredness.

That being said, my mood at the moment is really quite lovely - clearheaded and supported and ready to tackle the day. Why might that be? 

Well, last night two very special things happened. For one, my Dad was out shopping and picked me up some delicious smelling shampoo. This is really great timing, because the last day I'd done in tools had been "Shopping day" and involved going out and buying a fresh-scented body wash. Since I'm not driving yet I couldn't really do this and skipped over it, so I was really feeling karma in action when Dad set the bottle down on my nightstand.

Also, last night, I made myself a little schedule for today on a small notepad. It's very simple and includes time for breaks and meditation and cleaning and school, and it really feels so very secure to have my goals WRITTEN DOWN. I feel like all this time I've spent just trying to remember what I want to do in a day (and usually failing at it) really contributes to a generally disorganized feeling, and pretty much sets one up for failure. Having a list/schedule is a great way to feel like the ball is rolling, and there's really no turning back now. :)

Had some great coffee this morning again, it's lovely to take that little step and have that treat, feels like I'm moving towards improving my outlook and kick-starting my day. 

Ah! Acording to my schedule I'm ten minutes late for starting school!

I should wrap this up :) Thanks SO much for reading this whole thing, it means the world to me.

As with my other blog posts, I'd be happy to give you a boost or check out your blog if you'd like to leave a comment here :)

Cya tomorrow! 

~Becky 

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