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Birth Date: Wed, May 12

Place of residence:
Helena MT, United States (map)

I am: Single & Dating

Schools: MSU-Billings, UMASS-Lowell, LTS

Jobs: Deputy Interstate Compact, Student, Teaching Assistant

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Member Since: 02/16/08
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derdekai's Life List:
Visiting the Dominican and meeting my sponsored child. I did this in 2010 and it was truly a life changing experience.
Visiting Guatemala and meeting my sponsored child. I visited Guatemala in May 2012, but went for a different reason. I spent a week visiting with the national ecumenical council and met Rigoberta Menchu and Rosalina Tuyuc. I hope to go back soon, and I still hope to meet my sponsored child there.
Visiting El Salvador and meeting my sponsored child.
Visiting India and meeting my sponsored child there.
Completing my Master's degree. I finished my MA-Criminal Justice in November 2011.
Completing my mDiv degree. Started this in Feb 2012. New path - new direction - and wow, what a ride!
Find that special someone to share my life with. Not in any rush on this one - but I know it will happen one day.
To actually make it through all 90 days of Tools to Life. I have started at least three or four times, and let life get in the way. (I know, no more excuses.) Started today - July 6, 2012. With all of the other incredible changes in my life, it seemed like a good time to get going!
Spend at least a week on a winter backpacking trip (snowshoe in).
Learn how to can and preserve produce. My first garden is officially growing (July 2012). I am so excited!
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2008-07-31 07:45:23

LeoMan

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Thanks for hearing my tune derdekai. Will upload some other ones later on. The only thing i wanted from you that you dance on the tune :P. have a nice weekend my dear.

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2012-11-15 01:33:15

katebet

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Hey there - noticed you haven't been around for a while. I hope you come back soon...boost to you.

2012-11-11 23:45:47

JmkSuccess

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Here's a boost for you, i hope this goes to your email and that it prompts you come back and get back in the game, you can finish what you started, you are powerful! WE are on the same day and we could get through it together! J

2012-10-09 03:29:25

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A boost for you for keeping on going - it sounds like you are having some real insights - good work!

2012-10-02 10:24:42

JmkSuccess

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Here's a boost to you continued success, Day 53....yippee! you are close now keep going and thanks for the inspiration! Jason

2012-07-23 01:36:56

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Here's a BOOST for you! Hope you are having a great day!

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The Surface

 

Sometimes we do not look far enough into a person and we miss the magic of who they are. At first glance I am 5'5", with long curly auburn hair and hazel eyes, about 235, and usually sporting a smile. At 36, I have experienced some incredibly difficult times, but I have survived. Though painful, these are the events I am most grateful for. To all my relations, thank you for the lessons.  

 

the Surroundings...

 

Sometimes we see in each other, what we can not seem to find in ourselves. I am eternally grateful to have in my life a friend who is both sister and mother... maske even. We have helped each other remember our strengths during our darkest moments, and we have shared our greatest joys. She has helped me to learn that it is ok to be afraid and to cry, but that we must not allow that fear to control us... those tears to drown us. We must let them go so that we can love freely and live freely. We must accept our sufferings, our losses, and our lessons, so that we are able to be open and honest with those who need us, regardless of who they are, or what their relationship to us is. It was a perfect stranger that looked me in the eyes and told me "Good things will come soon." To all my relations, thank you for the laughter and the tears. 

 

and Beyond.

 

It truly is the journey that matters. Share your stories and remember you are not alone. Be good to yourself, to your environment, to your elders and your children, and to strangers... you never know when you will need them. Sometimes we get so caught up in life that we forget what is really important. Our lives are measured in minutes and dollars. Do we want to be remembered this way? I know that I do not. I work two jobs, go to school, and still find time for reflection, crafts, poetry, books, nature, and friends. People ask me how I do it. The answer is simple... I make a conscious effort to remember what is truly important in life. Smiles are free, and sometimes, that's all it takes to make a world of difference. To all my relations, thank you for this life.

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I took a huge risk and landed a wonderful job doing exactly what I want to be doing. The love of my life is 100% supportive and will stand by me no matter what, even though we both know that it will be a challenge living 4 hours apart for a while. Everyone in my life that is close to me, and even some who aren't, have commented on the changes they have seen over the last year.  So, the question remains... when my parents say, "Is it worth it?" and "You have to finish something."... why does that leave me feeling like I'm standing on the edge of a cliff waiting to jump off into a huge tailspin?

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RobertFarrell RobertFarrell at 2008-07-30

says: You ARE standing on the edge of something, but it is not a cliff. It is an opening to new opportunities and challenges. To have a job you love and to be with a person you love, even in difficult or different circumstances, are two of the greatest gifts you can have. It is worth it. And you are worth it.

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I joined TOOLS because:
 I'm working at improving all aspects of my "wellness" so it just seemed to fit.
You are offered your dream job. What job is it?:
 Ministering to "the least of these".
My favorite wild animal is:
 Toss up between a dolphin and a ladybug.
Why (describe as much as possible):
 Dolphins are smart, strong, and loyal. Ladybugs are free spirited.
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
 My two little monsters - shih-tzu/yorkshire terrier cross pups.
Why:
 I love animals, so picking a favorite is difficult, but these two little monsters have been an amazing addition to my life.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
 Some sort of super spicy sushi!
Why:
 I love sushi and I love the "hot stuff".
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
 Mother Teresa, Ghandi, Robin Williams, Neale Donald Walsch, and Don Miguel Ruiz.
Why:
 Mother Teresa and Ghandi... to sit in the presence of true passion and resolution to ideals. Neale Donald Walsch... to see if he really is having a "conversation with God". Don Miguel Ruiz... to thank him for the "4 agreements". Robin Williams... to keep it all in perspective and add a little humor!
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
 Home. (I typically only see my family once or twice a year, so any opportunity to get home I try to take!)
My perfect slice of pizza is:
 Thin crust, lots of feta cheese, white sauce, spinach, chicken, and artichoke hearts.
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
 Extra spicy vodka and clam.
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
 Some kind of tea since I am a bit of a tea junkie.
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
 Wishes suggest we don't have what we need... and will never get it. I'm just trying to figure out how to make the best of what I've been given.
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring (separate by commas):
 The Muppet Show (for the Mahna-Mahna), Tanita Tikaram (for the spirit), and Nedra Johnson (to "bless this holy love").
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
 Bring a little smile to the folks around me.
A sunset I remember:
 June or July 2004... I had been put out to fast and it was my last night. The sunset was incredible and with it came the understanding that it was time to truly change my life. I knew where I needed to go and what I needed to begin to do.
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be:
 Yoda from Star Wars.
Why:
 Hmmm... may the Force be with you.