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Birth Date: Wed, Apr 26 1989

Place of residence:
Mesa AZ, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

Schools: Carl Sandburg High School; Northern Illinois University; Glendale Community College; The Art Institute of Phoenix

Jobs: White Castle; Jamba Juice; PA&T Insurance; Sonic; Delivering Flyers For ADT/RSVP Security


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Member Since: 09/07/08
Last Login: 01/29/10
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Join the peace corp.
Live in a completely enviornmentally friendly home.
Stick to a steady exercise regime. To always be continually active.
Use my time wisely. Don't sit around when I know there are things to do.
When there is an opportunity to accel, don't say I'll wait til next time.
Don't think so much, just do.
Bring drumming back into my life as a hobby, not a chore, for myself, not for others.
Get a job.
Once I get a job, save as much money as I can for a year & find a place in L.A. No unneccessary spending!!! Ask myself why/if I need this.
Don't complain. Know that I can't control other's actions but I can take control of mine, have the best intentions & be confident in my decisions. Take responsibility for myself, not others. Stop letting people rely on me. It's just a distraction/procratination from my own responsibilites. It's not being greedy, it's having boundaries. Learn how to rely on myself.
Study motorcycle handbook & get my permit.
Use the computer only as neccessary. Don't waste unproductive hours on it accomplishing nothing.
Don't take things to heart. Realize that other people's opinions are really about themselves, not you. Grow a thick skin. What is the purpose of shrinking just because I want everyone to like me. I will never be liked by everyone. Get rid of the people I have to try to be liked by & stick with the people I'm naturally liked by. What sense does it make to keep someone in my life that likes me because I'm altering who I am. The sooner I can train my instincts to realize this, the better off I'll be. It's nothing personal, it's just the way people click.
Master time-management. I know I can do it.
When a situation calls for a few extra steps than anticipated, don't try to make it work without the needed steps. THAT ONLY TAKES LONGER WHEN I REALIZE IT WON'T WORK & I HAVE TO TAKE THE EXTRA STEPS ANYWAYS!!!
Go to school & get a degree.
Work in movie production.
Learn how to remain internally peaceful in the most stressful situatioins.

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Well, Today Wasn't A Complete Disaster

 

 

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  dobbywarnshryptr

Fri, Jul 03 11:12 PM

Well, Today Wasn't A Complete Disaster

 

I woke up.  That's a start.  I told myself even if I waste the day, I'll get up when my alarm clock goes off.  I did, it was good, but after a few hours I started getting tired.  I'm not used to waking up so early.  I ended up falling asleep around 11:00am.

 

If I keep doing the same things, I'll keep getting the same responses.  I was more aware about my food portions today.  Instead of just eating out of containers, I eyeballed my measurements.

 

I tried to keep busy until the next time I had to eat, it was pretty good, but I fell asleep again around 8:00pm after my scheduled snack.  I woke up an hour later & I went straight to the fridge and binged.  I think I did it because for my snack, I'm supposed to have a fruit, but I had an apple plus some nuts.  It made me feel really guilty & I couldn't stop thinking about it.

 

After I binged, I read my Tools contract that I have hanging on my mirror & I read the part about not wanting instant gratification.  It's just so difficult you know?  Like, I know quick fixes are bogus & all, but I can't stand me in my own body & it's hard.  I've gained weight & it's depressing.  I don't want people I know to see what I look like.

 

I'm actually really glad that I can't afford to see my best friend until September because I don't want her to see what I look like right now.  I know it's sad.

 

But, I came back here...that's surprising for me.  I just tried not to overanalyze coming back, whether I was ready to or not, whether I should move to Day 2 if I messed up like I did today.  But, I'm not perfect, & I can't expect to have a perfect 90-Day program.  It's about messing up.  Right?

 

So, one of the questions on here was can I think of 4-5 ways to stretch my resources?  I can go to Eating Disorder Anonymous Meetings, I also just started looking into a religion called Baha'i & there's this feast they have every 19 days & they invited me to go on Tuesday...maybe I'll go to that, what else...I started working independently kind of & it's a network marketing kind of thing & they have meetings every Wednesday, & my orientation for school is on Wednesday too!  So, there are 4 resources that I will try to stretch.

 

I spent the whole day inside.  My throat & ear are really soar & bothering me, I hope I don't have to go to the doctor.  I did unpack a little today which was good, but there's still a lot to do in my apartment.  School starts the 13th of July & I don't want to start drowning on my first day.

 

Tomorrow, I'm going to do my laundry, I haven't done it since I moved here & I just ran out of clothes.  I'm heading to my sisters tonight, I'll do my laundry there & go to the gym.  I can't afford not to exercise.  It's something that makes me feel great about myself, it's just going there that's the problem.  I have to do what I did with Tools today & not think & analyze in my head...just do it.

 

Me & my sister still haven't talked about our issues, but tomorrow's the 4th & she invited me to be with her, so yeah, we'll see how that goes.

 

Okay, anytime I have a negative thought, cancel it out or restate it.

 

If I do nothing else tomorrow, I will do that.

 

Food is an issue, but I think making that the focus is going to get me off track.  I think if I can focus on my assignments more, my food will fall into place.

 

Happy 4th, & I'll be back tomorrow.  No over-analyzing.

 

 

Peace & love,

~Kirsten

 

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