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Birth Date: Wed, Apr 26 1989

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Schools: Carl Sandburg High School; Northern Illinois University; Glendale Community College; The Art Institute of Phoenix

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I Feel Different (In A Good Way)

 

 

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Tue, Jul 07 12:37 AM

I Feel Different (In A Good Way)

 

Today  was good.  I got up & went to the gym, but it took me about 3 & a half hours to get there after I woke up.  Tomorrow, I would really like to get there within the hour of waking up.

 

Time management is one of the many things I struggle with.  I really hope that is something I can change.  I get separation anxiety with whatever it is that I'm doing at the moment that I have to leave.  Probably because it's more comfortable to just stay put instead of moving forward with my day.

 

My meals were pretty good.  No bingeing!  I didn't follow my meal plan EXACTLY, but I managed my portions & I tried to fit everything in.  I did however negotiate some foods in my plan today which is something I know won't help with my weight loss if I keep doing that.

 

Today is Day 5, which mean, I have to listen to myself when I want to negotiate food.  One of the exercises I did on Day4 asked what is one thing I can work on & have a plan for & I decided that anytime I want to binge, I will remove myself from my surroundings, food, stimulants like tv/radio & sit for a while & think about what it is that's bothering me & what I can do to change it & maybe go for a short walk to calm my urges down.

 

So I'm gunna try that out tomorrow.

 

My throat is pretty much healed, my ear I can feel, is still a little tender, I hope whatever was causing my pain isn't/wasn't anything serious.

 

I hung out with my sister today.  It was good.  We talked about different stuff...I told her I'm thinking about joining the Baha'i Faith because it's so welcoming & I feel like it answers some questions about my beliefs.  So we talked about religion & she said as she continues to get older she believes in religion less & less & that she just believes in being a good person & hopefully that will be good enough for God.  I agree.  I mean, that's basically what religion's purpose is anyways, & kinda what Baha'i is.

 

There's this feast they do every 19 days & tomorrow is the day.  They invited me to join them & I'm gunna check it out & see how it feels.  It's definitely weird because I was born into Christ & this is accepting someone new, but not really forgetting Christ.  It's a really interesting belief.  All religions are accepted & you can keep your religion & still be Baha'i too.   I like it because it's not organized really & praying is what you want it to be, if you are a kind of artist or if you create something it is considered emulating "the almighty creator" which in turn is considered prayer.  So we'll see how it goes.  I haven't accepted it completely as my faith, but I"m excited about it because it might be a cool way to meet people & it's not some kind of religion where you hold your hand up & say, "praise the lord!" & all that uncomfortable weird stuff that just makes me feel pressured & awkward.

 

So we'll see how that goes.  I'm gunna try & get out of the apartment & hang out with my sister after the gym.  She has studying to do, but I think it's good that I stay out of the apartment for most of the day so I'll just bring a book while she studies at the coffee house.

 

I went to The Art Institute today to finish signing all my paperwork.  I waited like an hour & a half just to sign one piece of paper, but at least it's over.  I have orientation Wednesday.  I really hope it goes well.  I really want this to be what changes my monotonous life.  I need to succeed.

 

I'm having trouble you know just overthinking things.  I always do this.  Anytime I hear something like "listen to your innervoice" I just overwhelm myself because I don't know how often, when to question it, do I always have to be "good" where I can't break any rules...it's just boundaries that I have problems with.  I need to learn how to be okay with the choices I make & not feel guilty for choosing not to do something.  Like his quote for Day 5's checklist says, "What we have to learn to do, we learn by doing."  So, practice is what I need.

 

That's pretty much it for tonight.  One last thing I struggled with today is sleeping...again.  I didn't sleep as much!  but I did take an afternoon nap.

 

I'll try again to stay awake during the day.  I wonder if there's something to help me with this.  For starter's, probably getting to bed before midnight, so I should go!

 

Goodnight,

 

~Kirsten

 

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