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Birth Date: Wed, Apr 26 1989

Place of residence:
Mesa AZ, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

Schools: Carl Sandburg High School; Northern Illinois University; Glendale Community College; The Art Institute of Phoenix

Jobs: White Castle; Jamba Juice; PA&T Insurance; Sonic; Delivering Flyers For ADT/RSVP Security


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Member Since: 09/07/08
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Join the peace corp.
Live in a completely enviornmentally friendly home.
Stick to a steady exercise regime. To always be continually active.
Use my time wisely. Don't sit around when I know there are things to do.
When there is an opportunity to accel, don't say I'll wait til next time.
Don't think so much, just do.
Bring drumming back into my life as a hobby, not a chore, for myself, not for others.
Get a job.
Once I get a job, save as much money as I can for a year & find a place in L.A. No unneccessary spending!!! Ask myself why/if I need this.
Don't complain. Know that I can't control other's actions but I can take control of mine, have the best intentions & be confident in my decisions. Take responsibility for myself, not others. Stop letting people rely on me. It's just a distraction/procratination from my own responsibilites. It's not being greedy, it's having boundaries. Learn how to rely on myself.
Study motorcycle handbook & get my permit.
Use the computer only as neccessary. Don't waste unproductive hours on it accomplishing nothing.
Don't take things to heart. Realize that other people's opinions are really about themselves, not you. Grow a thick skin. What is the purpose of shrinking just because I want everyone to like me. I will never be liked by everyone. Get rid of the people I have to try to be liked by & stick with the people I'm naturally liked by. What sense does it make to keep someone in my life that likes me because I'm altering who I am. The sooner I can train my instincts to realize this, the better off I'll be. It's nothing personal, it's just the way people click.
Master time-management. I know I can do it.
When a situation calls for a few extra steps than anticipated, don't try to make it work without the needed steps. THAT ONLY TAKES LONGER WHEN I REALIZE IT WON'T WORK & I HAVE TO TAKE THE EXTRA STEPS ANYWAYS!!!
Go to school & get a degree.
Work in movie production.
Learn how to remain internally peaceful in the most stressful situatioins.

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  dobbywarnshryptr

Thu, Sep 10 10:38 PM

Continuous Motion

 

I almost didn't get up this morning just because yesterday I stretched into my spine & totally felt it this morning.  But I need to keep exercising in the morning so I can stay consistent...I felt good after I was done.  I'm really glad I went.

 

It was a pretty productive day I guess.  I definitely take longer to do things than the average person, but at least I'm doing things. I really get on myself about not moving fast enough...I am literally always the last one for everything, & it really eats at me.

 

I got randomly depressed tonight.  I just had a bunch of emotions & flashbacks & I just sat there, not doing anything for a half hour watching tv.  It was time for me to go over my checklist & I so did not want to.  I just did not feel it in me, but after a half hour, I just did it anyways, even though I was crying.  I just told myself it won't make things worse.

 

I planned out the weekend so I'm not just wingin it & I can keep busy.  I'm gunna unpack for 1/2 hour & sort through my mail for 1/2 hour each day, & then I'm gunna spend an hour outside at the park.  There's usually ducks there so maybe I'll feed them & sketch them cause I like to draw.

 

I have a video project I have to work on this weekend too.  Kinda nervous cause it's my first time filming & editing on my own, but it's just a simple 30 second music video...once I figure out what it will be about.  I missed class this last week when I was not doing so well, & I'm kind of worried I missed something important about my project.

 

I have exterminators comin tomorrow cause there's cockroaches in my apartment...there is seriously nothing more appetizing than finding a cockroach swimming for its life in one of your dirty dishes.  I'm not really prepared for them to come, but hopefully I'll have some time when I get back from exercising...but I have a paper I have to write  before class tomorrow too.  I'm used to making my life chaotic so I'm sure I'll make it work.

 

These things will get better.

 

And a bird flew into my car today...I got so freaked out I pulled over & started to tear up, but when I went out to check on it, it was gone...that was a relief.  I don't think I can handle the responsibility of death.  Maybe God needed to teach both of us a lesson, not quite sure what it is lol.Undecided

 

 

 

 

Sweet Dreams (I'm getting to bed earlier today, right on.)

 

 

~Kirsten~

 

 

 

 

 

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Wonderful Kristen

You have an amzing ability to express what you are experiencing. You are very in touch with what is going on with you. Being so aware means that you can real change things.

 

I love that you wrote, "These things will get better." They will! You are very brave and you are sticking with it.

 

I admire your courage...

 

Devlyn 

Agreed.....

I also admire your courage.  I know it is hard right now because I have been there.

 

I went through similar things with flashbacks, crying and eating disorders. I know what you mean when you say you move more slowly.  And actually, so did I.  Facing sad and hard things takes energy and courage.  I am glad to see you taking your time and taking care of you.

 

It won't always be this way. The crying and sadness does end.  It is a season and you will have new seasons just like I did.

 

 

 

 

Sending you lots of love Sending you lots of love and a hug.

Thank you for the support

It really means a lot to me & always lifts my spirits.

 

 Thank you <3