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Birth Date: Wed, Apr 26 1989

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Mesa AZ, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

Schools: Carl Sandburg High School; Northern Illinois University; Glendale Community College; The Art Institute of Phoenix

Jobs: White Castle; Jamba Juice; PA&T Insurance; Sonic; Delivering Flyers For ADT/RSVP Security


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Join the peace corp.
Live in a completely enviornmentally friendly home.
Stick to a steady exercise regime. To always be continually active.
Use my time wisely. Don't sit around when I know there are things to do.
When there is an opportunity to accel, don't say I'll wait til next time.
Don't think so much, just do.
Bring drumming back into my life as a hobby, not a chore, for myself, not for others.
Get a job.
Once I get a job, save as much money as I can for a year & find a place in L.A. No unneccessary spending!!! Ask myself why/if I need this.
Don't complain. Know that I can't control other's actions but I can take control of mine, have the best intentions & be confident in my decisions. Take responsibility for myself, not others. Stop letting people rely on me. It's just a distraction/procratination from my own responsibilites. It's not being greedy, it's having boundaries. Learn how to rely on myself.
Study motorcycle handbook & get my permit.
Use the computer only as neccessary. Don't waste unproductive hours on it accomplishing nothing.
Don't take things to heart. Realize that other people's opinions are really about themselves, not you. Grow a thick skin. What is the purpose of shrinking just because I want everyone to like me. I will never be liked by everyone. Get rid of the people I have to try to be liked by & stick with the people I'm naturally liked by. What sense does it make to keep someone in my life that likes me because I'm altering who I am. The sooner I can train my instincts to realize this, the better off I'll be. It's nothing personal, it's just the way people click.
Master time-management. I know I can do it.
When a situation calls for a few extra steps than anticipated, don't try to make it work without the needed steps. THAT ONLY TAKES LONGER WHEN I REALIZE IT WON'T WORK & I HAVE TO TAKE THE EXTRA STEPS ANYWAYS!!!
Go to school & get a degree.
Work in movie production.
Learn how to remain internally peaceful in the most stressful situatioins.

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  dobbywarnshryptr

Sun, Oct 04 10:22 PM

It's never enough

 

I'm not going to move forward with Tools tonight.  I haven't practiced the way I should be & I want to get a good day going first.  I don't feel ready to move forward tonight.

 

I just got back to Phoenix today.  I was visiting my friends & family back home in Chicago.  I felt like I had to force myself to come back to Phoenix, even though I didn't want to stay in Chicago.  Maybe it's because I'm resistant to changing my life.  Even though I didn't want to stay in Chicago, being there, I know that I can just hang around & take my time with my life - also known as being lazy.  Because I'm not pressured to take care of anything like bills or groceries or anything else.  I'm being taken care of instead of having to care for myself.

 

It was only a week long trip, but I'm already freaking out about visiting for Christmas.  I know I make things bigger in my head, but it's not the situations that I'm worried about, it's just the constant struggles & battles with food.  It was not easy this past week & it was not fun.   I'm trying to just really listen to my body, but my mind has this fucking ability to create it's own feeling of hunger & when I resist, the inside of my stomach feels like it's being pulled apart or something.  It's hard to explain, but these feelings that my mind creates are something I will definitely NOT miss.

 

I basically spent half the day sleeping.  I did laundry & went grocery shopping.  I still can't believe I have school tomorrow.  I don't feel prepared.  I added another class to my load & tomorrow I have 8 hours of school.

 

I had baby battles with food today & I kept telling myself to let it go bc it's in the past, don't get down about it, pick myself up from the fall & move forward.  It worked, but my mind is back in a bad place again.  Because I'm not prepared for tomorrow, it's like my brain hurts bc there's too many thoughts & not enough room for them to move around.  My breathing feels shorter & I just need to go crawl into bed bc I'm worried for myself if I stay awake any longer.  I got through the day & kept picking myself up & I don't feel like falling again.

 

I really want the day to go well tomorrow, or at least to practice Tools like I should.  I didn't apply myself enough with the checklist & affirmations last week & I can't choose when it's a good time to do that stuff otherwise I'll never do it.

 

I'm just glad it's bedtime so I can escape my life for a few hours.

 

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Sending you a Hug!

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Hang in there. You can do this.

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Just hang on and everything will be fine! As the saying says 'if yu're going through hell, just keep going!', it has to end one day! :D

You can do it!!!!

You can do it, keep going! You can do it, keep going!

thinking of you

Hey,  I cant help but want to reach out to you. and to do anything to make you feel better.  You really are an inspiration to me and I believe in you and know that you will make out fine.  Don't give up!

I've been there

I know a bit about what you are going through. I call it living your"small self". It's not about your routine, your eating, your family or not doing enough...be kind to yourself and cut yourself some slack.

 

Your low energy and indifference is coming to you to help guide you....sounds weird I know but hear me out. Allow for a sleep day...or a "me day". An all about you kind of day! During that day however you have an assignment...to find where and what is your "Big Self"...your dream self looks like.

 

You have a gift, a talent, something you are passionate about, there's a strong independent woman within you...the idea is so big and powerful it scares you! Your Big Self is what you are running from, trying to keep it buried, but you know deep within you your light needs to shine. Because you ignore it...frustration sets in and you ponder your life or why you are where you are at.

 

Your feelings you have are due to missing your Big Self and longing for it to Show Up in your life.

 

I was there, I know what it feels like. try this...Write down what your dream life looks like...no not about being looked after by some rich guy lol... But what are you doing that makes you take flight, feel strong, feel alive? Get some air under those wings and dream the Big Dream, without limits, nothing is impossible here.

 

You are the star, director, producer and camera crew of the movie of your life. Write a new script that sees you Shine!!

 

You are more powerful, more beautiful and more capable than you can imagine....Get into your Big Self and Shine on!! :)

 

Blessings!! :)

Thanks Guys

I really appreciate your comments & support.  It's so awesome to read when I'm not feeling so hot, so thank you so much!

Welcome back from Phoenix!

I am still away...*Lolz* YOU can handle it, some things are almost impossible to feel prepared for and that is the time to face them and learn from them. We learn through failure and have to adjust our course to compensate. I am behind a few days and I am also behind you and your efforts! YOU are WORTH it! " Even though I don't feel prepared and I am doing it anyway! " .

You can do it, keep going! You can do it, keep going and growing!!