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Birth Date: Wed, Apr 26 1989

Place of residence:
Mesa AZ, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

Schools: Carl Sandburg High School; Northern Illinois University; Glendale Community College; The Art Institute of Phoenix

Jobs: White Castle; Jamba Juice; PA&T Insurance; Sonic; Delivering Flyers For ADT/RSVP Security


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Member Since: 09/07/08
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Join the peace corp.
Live in a completely enviornmentally friendly home.
Stick to a steady exercise regime. To always be continually active.
Use my time wisely. Don't sit around when I know there are things to do.
When there is an opportunity to accel, don't say I'll wait til next time.
Don't think so much, just do.
Bring drumming back into my life as a hobby, not a chore, for myself, not for others.
Get a job.
Once I get a job, save as much money as I can for a year & find a place in L.A. No unneccessary spending!!! Ask myself why/if I need this.
Don't complain. Know that I can't control other's actions but I can take control of mine, have the best intentions & be confident in my decisions. Take responsibility for myself, not others. Stop letting people rely on me. It's just a distraction/procratination from my own responsibilites. It's not being greedy, it's having boundaries. Learn how to rely on myself.
Study motorcycle handbook & get my permit.
Use the computer only as neccessary. Don't waste unproductive hours on it accomplishing nothing.
Don't take things to heart. Realize that other people's opinions are really about themselves, not you. Grow a thick skin. What is the purpose of shrinking just because I want everyone to like me. I will never be liked by everyone. Get rid of the people I have to try to be liked by & stick with the people I'm naturally liked by. What sense does it make to keep someone in my life that likes me because I'm altering who I am. The sooner I can train my instincts to realize this, the better off I'll be. It's nothing personal, it's just the way people click.
Master time-management. I know I can do it.
When a situation calls for a few extra steps than anticipated, don't try to make it work without the needed steps. THAT ONLY TAKES LONGER WHEN I REALIZE IT WON'T WORK & I HAVE TO TAKE THE EXTRA STEPS ANYWAYS!!!
Go to school & get a degree.
Work in movie production.
Learn how to remain internally peaceful in the most stressful situatioins.

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  dobbywarnshryptr

Mon, Oct 12 09:25 PM

I am soooo tired

 

The past 2 days have been interesting.  Not necessarily good or bad, just interesting.  I am so tired from last night.  I needed to finish my homework last night because I put it off & I stayed up until midnight, fell asleep, & then woke up at 3am to finish it.  It really reminds me of high school when I used to pull off those kinds of sleeping patterns.

 

It was a rough night & some weird things happened too.  I spent the night at my sister's last night & I was doing alright, but the stress of finishing this project was really difficult.  I kept trying to focus on the main point & what I needed to do.  I knew that relapsing would not be beneficial.  It was the only thing that was going on in my head & I couldn't focus.  I gave in.

 

And my sister's been telling me about noises & things that've been happening in her room.  We think there's ghosts or something.  She came upstairs in the middle of the night & started talking about something really creepy that happened while she was sleeping, & that just freaked me out.

 

On a more positive note, I barely sulked in the negative thoughts that come after a relapse & I ate perfectly today.  I tried to think about the rule of 20 & practiced the best I could with eating at the table & breathing & taking sips of water & all that good stuff.  It's almost like I just brushed the relapse off...like it was easy to do or something.  I'm still really struggling with my body image, but I keep telling my body that I love it Smile as a positive affirmation.

 

I really feel like my checklist is starting to sink in.  I was really worried because I felt like I wasn't absorbing the stuff I was reading.  I can't really explain it, but some of it just feels like it's starting to click with me.  It's pretty awesome.

 

I know there's still sooo much work that I need to do, & I can't disregard the day I had yesterday, but having a day that went fairly well like today makes things even more awesome & it makes me smile.

 

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Great Transition

As your checklist sinks in deeper and deeper your sails will remain fuller and fuller. You will Captain this ship that is your life with authority and confidence to distant shores of your choosing.

 

It is ok that you had a leak, we all return to the old established sea routes fraught with peril and jagged rocks. You definitely turned on the bilge pump and chose a course with more sun and wind!

 

Sail Safe Now... Cheers Matee!

You make me smile You make me smile