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dobbywarnshryptr
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Birth Date: Wed, Apr 26 1989

Place of residence:
Mesa AZ, United States (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

Schools: Carl Sandburg High School; Northern Illinois University; Glendale Community College; The Art Institute of Phoenix

Jobs: White Castle; Jamba Juice; PA&T Insurance; Sonic; Delivering Flyers For ADT/RSVP Security


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Member Since: 09/07/08
Last Login: 01/29/10
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dobbywarnshryptr's Life List:
Join the peace corp.
Live in a completely enviornmentally friendly home.
Stick to a steady exercise regime. To always be continually active.
Use my time wisely. Don't sit around when I know there are things to do.
When there is an opportunity to accel, don't say I'll wait til next time.
Don't think so much, just do.
Bring drumming back into my life as a hobby, not a chore, for myself, not for others.
Get a job.
Once I get a job, save as much money as I can for a year & find a place in L.A. No unneccessary spending!!! Ask myself why/if I need this.
Don't complain. Know that I can't control other's actions but I can take control of mine, have the best intentions & be confident in my decisions. Take responsibility for myself, not others. Stop letting people rely on me. It's just a distraction/procratination from my own responsibilites. It's not being greedy, it's having boundaries. Learn how to rely on myself.
Study motorcycle handbook & get my permit.
Use the computer only as neccessary. Don't waste unproductive hours on it accomplishing nothing.
Don't take things to heart. Realize that other people's opinions are really about themselves, not you. Grow a thick skin. What is the purpose of shrinking just because I want everyone to like me. I will never be liked by everyone. Get rid of the people I have to try to be liked by & stick with the people I'm naturally liked by. What sense does it make to keep someone in my life that likes me because I'm altering who I am. The sooner I can train my instincts to realize this, the better off I'll be. It's nothing personal, it's just the way people click.
Master time-management. I know I can do it.
When a situation calls for a few extra steps than anticipated, don't try to make it work without the needed steps. THAT ONLY TAKES LONGER WHEN I REALIZE IT WON'T WORK & I HAVE TO TAKE THE EXTRA STEPS ANYWAYS!!!
Go to school & get a degree.
Work in movie production.
Learn how to remain internally peaceful in the most stressful situatioins.

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  dobbywarnshryptr

Fri, Oct 30 02:11 PM

It's "hail mary" time

 

I finally got a new computer today.  I am back on Tools & ready to keep moving.  I know I shouldn't have let that be my reason..sorry, excuse, for my problems because I can always practice Tools, but I can't think about that now, it's in the past.  Plus, this new computer is getting me excited!  I heart Macs.  Except I can't make my font pink on this website for some reason lol, wutevs.  And you know, I always freak about missing days on Tools &, like I do with everything else, I make it bigger in my head, that I'm missing days so now I'm behind & all that bogusness, but I just finished day 38 & it was like so simple.  Helpful, but like, I was prepared to handle it.

 

I'm going to start the body makeover program on Monday which I'm excited about.  I have to work on a meal plan this weekend too.  I went out and bought a scale & I'm just really excited.  I haven't been weighing myself just because it can get really out of control where I do it all the time & end up weighing my self-esteem instead of my body.  But I feel like I can handle it.  It's actually making me more calm because I can see that the food I'm eating isn't affecting me by making me gain 50 pounds.  It is however, something that should be approached with caution & I am aware of that.  I'll keep myself checked by writing about any problems that might come across, which I hope doesn't happen. 

 

I've decided that I'm not going to watch any TV for the rest of the week.  I think if I can do that, I'll have opportunities to do other things.  I can't just sit here & zone out.  However easy it might be.  But I've been thinking a lot about how people have hobbies & activities in their lives, & I don't know what mine are.  I'm scared of developing any interests just because firstly, it's hard involving yourself in something that everyone else is good at & you know nothing about & secondly, I'm just a nervous wreck lol.  I freeze up & I'm essentially a scaredy cat.

 

This past week I've really felt kind of lost.  I feel like I've just been floating.  But I also feel like what I want for myself is really close.  So, I guess I'm just going to let time deal with that.

 

Halloween...what an awesome day for eating disorders lol.  Free candy?  mmmm, no thanks lol. 

 

I think I'll come back tonight & write some more.  My plan for the day - shower, cleaning & homework.  I can't wait until my apartment is finally organized.  It seriously looks so much better because I found a desk & dresser off craigslist to put my papers & art stuff in, but now that needs to be organized so I can't just leave it at that!

 

Pfffff, here I go.

 

 

 

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