I run group therapy for an adult schizophrenic population at a Long Term structured residence facility. I graduated from Temple University with a Bachelor's degree in Psychology. I have always been the funny "fat" friend for as long as I could remember. I have social anxiety, low self esteem and I believe I have bouts of depression (although I think I hide it REALLY well). If people know me, I am very outgoing. In new situations and around new people, I am quiet and shy and awkward. I have difficulty trusting people. I'm working on loving myself so that I can let others love me.
I played on all-state softball teams in high school, until I started dating my first boyfriend. I was in an abusive relationship with him from the time I was 16-18. I was told I was fat, ugly, worthless, stupid, and a waste of air on almost every occasion. I was cheated on, verbally abused, and eventually physically abused. I have had difficulty trusting people since then. In general, I cannot talk to men, i get very uncomfortable and at times have had panic attacks. I gained about 60 lbs from when I was 17 until now (thats a 6 year period). I became an emotional eater to fill the void that he left in me.
I am going to be healthy and happy. I am going to work on getting over my trust issues, which I believe will help with my anxiety and depression issues as well. I will monitor my emotions in order to control my emotional eating. I will try new things so that I do not look back on life and regret those things I did not try out of fear. I'm going to become the person I know I was meant to be.
I need help changing how i view myself and how I approach changes I want to make
You are offered your dream job. What job is it?:
In an ideal world, I would be an autism teacher at the pre-school/early elementary level.
My favorite wild animal is:
Monkeys and Tigers. Its hard to pick.
Why (describe as much as possible):
I like Chimps because watching them is like watching humans, only without the words getting in the way of their interaction. Tigers because they have eyes that just look right through you. They are feared, but also respected.
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
I love Dogs. I have grown up with Labrador Retrievers my entire life, and currently have a chocolate lab and a black lab. BUT, i LOVE boxers and english bulldogs as well.
Labs are intelligent. They can sense emotions and respond accordingly. They are very loyal.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
spinach and artichoke lasagna.
It's a comfort food meal, but at the same time, combines my favorite veggies in there as well. And lets be honest, if its a famous chef, i'm sure there would be their own spin on it and would be different than I'm used to.
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
Abraham Lincoln, John F. Kennedy, Rosa Parks, Ryan Reynolds, my friend from high school who died.
Lincoln and Parks to see their dynamic. Kennedy, just to see what he thinks of the world and politics todady. Ryan Reynolds for some eye candy. and my friend from high school, just to see her and see that she's happy and ok up in heaven.
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
Italy or Greece
My perfect slice of pizza is:
From Eddie's on Temple University Campus....their White pizza with Spinach and tomatoes.
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
Miller Lite. if it HAS to be a mixed drink...Cranberry and Vodka
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
iced coffee with soy milk and splenda
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
financial security (NOT to be rich), health, and a sense of happiness and contentment in my life.
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring
(separate by commas):
they would HAVE to be all mixed cd's. I can't limit myself to one artist per CD.
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
my neighborhood is pretty close knit and safe actually.
A sunset I remember:
Friends funeral burial at sunset. Not a happy one, but a memorable one.
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be:
Amy Smart's character in Just Friends
Because she got to make out with Ryan Reynolds, and also because their dynamic when they were JUST friends was a good one too.