I played on all-state softball teams in high school, until I started dating my first boyfriend.  I was in an abusive relationship with him from the time I was 16-18.  I was told I was fat, ugly, worthless, stupid, and a waste of air on almost every occasion.  I was cheated on, verbally abused, and eventually physically abused.  I have had difficulty trusting people since then.  In general, I cannot talk to men, i get very uncomfortable and at times have had panic attacks.  I gained about 60 lbs from when I was 17 until now (thats a 6 year period).  I became an emotional eater to fill the void that he left in me.