So after 5 months of not using tools i decided to come back today, out of bordom and depression, to see where i left off. Now im kicking myself.
about a month and a half ago i was out with my girlfriend my bestfriend and a bunch of my gf's friends. my bestfriend was there to hang out with a girl that he met the week before at a party. she wanted to go down to these guys house that are old friends of my girlfriend, we didnt really want to go because these guys are loser cokeheads and potheads that we stopped hanging out with a year ago because they have no futures but we went anyways so my friend could hang out with this girl. anyways we got drunk at the house and then went bowling, after bowling i was outside smoking with the losers while my gf andmost of the people were in the store buying food. the one guy mitch started peeing against the wall so just joking around i threw a stuffed footbal at him while he was peeing, he turned around and sucker punched me in the face. i went after him, and his two buddies grabbed me, one grabbed my thumb,bent it backwards and broke it, i had to have two pins put in it and a cast for 4 weeks. now ive been out of work for 6 weeks my thumb still hurts and i dont know if itll ever be the same and i have no idea what that is going to do to my tattooing career.
I cant help but be pissed about the situation and i still really wanna hurt these guys if i ever see them again, but i know in truth, that my thumb being broken could have been prevented if i had made the right decisions that night; not to drink allot, not to hang out with those losers, and not to throw a football at a guy whos had it out for me ever since i started dating my girlfriend. and not to retaliate when it was just me, him and his two bestfriends out there.
i feel like i really just wanna move on... but how can i when i cant edont know if ill ever be able to do again?!
whats the right decision now?
ive stopped drinking, stopped smoking, stopped hanging around losers, but that still dosent get me tattooing and making money!
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hmm
well maybe you could learn to draw with your other hand. i taught myself to be right handed, as well as left handed, and i think im actually better with my right hand.
those guys have it comin sooner or later, let karma take care of them. you have enough trouble.
You are on the right path
That sucks what those guys did to you badly, but just like Sumiyaka said, Karma will get them sooner or later. Leave it up to that and realize that they are not worth your time or efforts. I assume you have been doing PT for your thumb? In time you will be able to use it properly again or at least the pain will subside and you will be able to adjust to using it a different way, but I do understand how important a role the thumb has. You will get through it. Sounds like you have taken some fantastic steps in getting your life back on track. You seem like a great person who just got caught up in a bad situation, happens to use all form time to time. Keep your head up and keep moving forward my man, you will get through it!