Being Grateful

So many things have been happening in my life that I haven't had time to be active in this community or to post any blogs!  It's been an up and down of emotions for a few months now. 

My family is still broken-Thanksgiving is with one inlaw and some friends.  My sibling and her child have decided they want nothing to do with us and is walking away from 30 years of marriage and from me (since I am too much like the spouse).  As if this wasn't bad enough, my sibling has been slandering the spouse and been verbally abusive and very accusatory; bitterness has been running the show. 

It's been rough; I've lost over 10 lbs., have had many sleepless nights (including last night where I awoke several times with nightmares), and by God's grace and my Pastors prayers, have been kept from being ship wrecked completely.

Some good things have been happening, however (thank God for His mercies!)  I had a great date with a very nice man and am supposed to see him again this weekend.  I have made many new friends and my social life has vastly improved.  i finally got together with a dear friend of mine yesterday and we talked for a few hours...it was great!  I am physically in better shape now then I've been in years (I'm dancing a lot and i love it).  So, there is that balance, gratefully so.  And I know in my heart that more good is to come.  I still don't know what the rest of my Holiday plans are...one day at a time.  I have family birthdays coming up, one special one that they don';t want me to be a part of...that's a tough one.  But the thing isn't finished yet!  And God only knows how it will all end.

Blessings to all, is what i pray for...God's best to all with no hatred, hardness, anger or unforgiveness, I pray healing into their hearts and lives that they may be able to truly love and forgive and grow and have a great life.  Without that there is nothing but death.

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