Okay, I'm back from vacation now & I really did have a good time, thank God. I went away by myself & the very first person i meet is this guy from my rinkydink town who turns out to be my sister's married neighbor! (of course he left out the married part since i didn't know he knew my sister at that time). so, that was a bit tough, but then i met some other folks, made friends w/ a lady & her daughter & chatted all the way home w/ a firefighter from a nearby town to where i work.
The best part to anything happening in life is what we learn from it, and i'm all the time learning more and more about the deeplly hidden fears within me. which is to my shame, really, since those fears are rooted in my insecurity and lack of being confident that i can do all things through Christ Who i believe in. somewhere deep inside of me there still lies the belief that i am not a nice person to be around (& that was true for a long time). i lived trying to be someone that i was not & it showed with my being bitter & angry & jealous. i have now been trying to find out who i am & trying to be faithful to that & it has been helping me to become nicer, friendlier, more grateful...someone much better than what I was. i've rediscovered dancing (did some while i was away) & in that manner also rediscovered physical pain (ouch!) in places that didn't hurt before. I did a group salsa lesson before i left and had a blast. i don't drink alcohol, don't smoke & don't like to go to bars since i know i won't meet anyone who i'd like to get to know (christian man), but i do love to dance, so i'm trying to find an environment where there is latin music at least (i'm hispanic), and an older, (hopefully) classier environment (none of this bump & grind stuff).
i'm trying to enjoy life more now & am praying for the wisdom to do so w/o compromising any of my beliefs. i rented a DVD made partly in animation & partly w/ these gorgeous puppets (the word doesn't do it justice). i loved it bcz they showed Jesus to be Someone who laughed & did what He did out of love & enjoyment (not suffering & torture the way most movies portray Him). But in this one, He enjoyed people & life...and that's the way I see Him, though i did not for long time. i believe you can't sacrifice w/o love & that laughter is really a medicine for our mind and bodies. in that, i'm learning to love people more, life more, and even feeling badly for those who won't take the time to just get to know me and make a friend. we're so obsessed sometimes as singles w/finding a mate tht. we forget tht. a lot of life is just making friends w/ someone of the opposite sex as well as same sex. even out of tht friendshp can evolve falling in love. i hope i'm making sense. it just seems to me tht i'd love to be friends w/ guys & girls & tht is cut off to me so often tht i hate it. i'm starting to deal w/ rejection better, but not 100% yet & maybe this has something to do with it, i don't know, but it seems to me tht we could all learn something from each ohter if we'd just come out of our safe little environments. so many people remain in their comfort zones tht now tht i've come out of mind, i find it truly frustrating! yes, tht's right...the only control i have is self control :) i better keep remembering that & remembering how long it's taken me to get to where i am today.
and how long i still have to go!..
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Each lesson is an opportunity for change. Sounds like you are taking lots of opportunities lately. Good for you.
REFRESHED AND REJUVINATED!
Hi there Eviet,
Glad to see you back knowing that you had a great unwinding which you so deserve. That was quite a rich experience, thanks for sharing. That vacation must have given you more positive insight on life and life per se. That is the way to go. Good attitude. Keep on wearing positivity, enjoy being back on track and have a great day. Oh, and the regular morning rituals: clapping, splashing, brushing (flo......ng
), smiling. I do the whole 5! (te he!). Have a great day!
Cheers,
Autumn Mist