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  Follet83

Fri, Nov 05 12:17 PM

But I won't back down.

 

I'm finding that through everything music has to be the one thing that amps me or calms me instantly. Right now I am enjoying the amped feeling of Eminem. I am mature enough to ignore the bod things he says, but he too has gone through huge transformations as a person as well.

 

I have been getting better everyday, and it took me a few to accept and admit that I have low self esteem. I thought that the fact that I argued and defended myself meant I was confident but my research shows that I am wrong. I asked my father what he thought he says it comes from my mother. She gave up full custody of me to my father (who is stable and a great dad) when I was 14. But my whole life I was made to believe that I was not good enough and that i was expected to do better, all the time that mistakes were not an option. Although I am now 23 I guess some of those feelings have not left.

 

 

At first I was not into the program. I am not enjoying and look forward to it daily.

 

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creativeamp68 creativeamp68:

Ah...Eminem...

I LOVE his Recovery album IMMENSELY. Not Afraid and Won't Back Down are two songs I can't get enough of listening. Hearing them makes me ready to take on an army. Heck, THAT WHOLE ALBUM makes me want to take on THE WORLD. Like everyone, Eminem has personal demons that he was able to conquer. We all can as well.

Stick with Tools, Follet. When you reach Day 90 you WILL make all your demons do jumping jacks, too!