So back when I started this program on April 30th 2010 I was a tempermental, angry, stressed out human being. My attitude would change like a light switch, instantly going from happy to upset but seemingly unable to go back to happy. I would sit and stew in that anger all day it seems and it had gotten worse and worse until the point that I was constantly angry and on edge. I hated it. I hated the feeling of constantly feelng tense and short fused. Luckily I listen to the man everyday, Jason Ellis. I know that there are many many people here that joined because of him, and I am surely one of them. He always spoke of what this program did for him and I figured, hey, my life is nowhere near what his is and if it helped him it will definitely help me!! So one day I just had enough and joined.
Right there on the first day I had a breakthrough, its amazing how well TOOLS works if you are simply willing to let it in and put in the time.
Within the first week I could already feel dramatic changes in my attitude, it was like a weight was lifted and I could see more clearly. I was waking up early and getting more accomplished. I enabled myself to look at my life and figure out what was real and what wasnt. What was important and what wasnt. I was able to look at some of my biggest fears head on and make new and dramatic decisions.
All ABOARD!!! Backtrack 11 and a half years ago when I met the girl who would eventually become my wife. She has always wanted children. I mean badly! It was what she wanted most in life. Problem was, is that I had no desire to EVER have kids. I always looked at it with an analyst's viewpoint, they cost too much, the world is too scary a place, how will it work, etc, etc,... And so I figured I would never be able to get onboard with her. Until this program gave me the TOOLS to look inside myself and get rid of all that cloudy clutter and self doubt. So one day I looked at her and said, "Lets go for it!", "Lets just do it!! I KNOW I will never be 100% ready but then again noone really ever is. Lets just do it!!". So pardon the pun, but do it we did.....
Back to the program for now. About 2-3 weeks in was when I started getting flak from my lady about how I was always "Mr. Happy" and she didnt like it and blah blah nonsense. I really tried to not let this get to me because I knew that it was probably a shocker for her as well to see and hear me be all happy and positive. But I simply explained to her over and over until she got it, that this is a GOOD thing, I am a happier person, more positive, easier to be around, easier to talk to, more approachable, more laid back, more focused, an overall better man which in turn made me a beter husband. And for the first time in my life, I was actually able to communicate! I mean I always could but it was always very easy for me to get all upset and shut down, but not anymore. I am a new man.
Shortly thereafter we got the news. The strip was positive. The second strip was positive. And yes, the third strip was positive. Really?? Already??? The first time?? We dont get to have at least a few months of fun?? Just right out of the gate?? Well OK. So I am gonna be a daddy. No problem. I got this. Funny thing is, I havent been nervous at all about it. I know that whatever comes my way I will be able to handle it.
With all of the changes that I have made throughout this program, I think that that one by far is the biggest. Getting over a lifetime fear and attacking it head on. I cannot put into words how much TOOLS has done for me, or should I say allowed me to accomplish. It has empowered me to do things that before I would have thought where improbable. It opened up doorways in my mind that allowed me to see things more clearly. Sure quite a bit of it has been like refresher courses for me, but then again quite a bit was new. Its amazing how saying something simple like "My attitude is my decision" can actually have such a dramatic impact on my day. The Law of Accumulation, the Reverse tool, Proactive vs. Reactive, etc... All of these TOOLS are with me now. I followed and paid attention. Sure, I didnt do everything 100% there were days when I slacked off, or just didnt feel like doing it. Could I have gotten more out of it? I am pretty sure I could have, but what I did get out of it was huge and priceless and I will never look down on myself for only giving 100% 95% of the time.
I wish I could scream from the hilltops to have everybody join and do the program but for the most part all I get is gruff from people when I mention it. So I dont unless I REALLY think that person could REALLY use the help and is asking for it anyway.
So to end this short novel, my journey through TOOLS has been one giant succes story and if I had to do it all over again, I would in a heartbeat. And you never know, do it all over again I might just do......
Have a GREAT life everyone. I know I will!!
