I ran my own business in St Peters burg for 10 years then I had my brian tumor surgery in 2005 And I ahve not really worked after that, I did have a gift store in Crystal River that my wife set up she was su[pposed to help me run it but I was runing the store alone and taking care of her dad who was 90 years old until he died I didnmt mind caring for him I loved him but I doid get mad sometimes he had altimers and iy was difficul,t to try anmd do both so after we had 3 hurricamnes come through there I closed trhe stire abd stayed hime with her dad until I left my ex wiffe and he was in a nursing home. I have no cantact with my ex wife at all and I dont hear from any of my old friends in LArgo ansd seminole where I( lived before My ex wife has tiurned them all agsinst me except for the people I knew in Crystal River who knew the truth about the abuse that she put me ands her dad through she went to the bar and told the Bartender a friend of moine who is sober and went to the same AA meetings I did what she did to me and we talked she told me that I had tpo go tio the Police and by the time the case was supposed tpo go to court I was stuck in Atlanta with no way to get back down there for the court date and the charges against her which she never found out about but all the people in Town there knew the truth of the abuse she put me through I am still having a hard time dating and I have not gone onn a date yet after my divorce I had ti find her befpore I cpould serve her papers of the divorce and Now I am free on paper but I am having a difficult time meeting someone ans jsut asking her out I guess my self confedence is less than It used to be and I am afraid of not being wanted I dont feel very wanted right now and I woish I could jsut meet some one who would at least understand what I have  gone through I was jsut driving around tonight and I was even thinking aboutr picking up a hooker jsut because I dont feel like I am wanmted by anyone and At least I woulkd be held by someone even if I had to payb them but I ckickened pout I thought I might not be such a good idea I was afraid of going to jail and that would be the last thing I wanted, So I dont even try to think about my own needs I ahve not been woith anyone in over a year and I am worried that nothing will jhappen again Like it did when I was with someone before I can go all night but I cant seem to have a ejaculation I dont know whats wrong with me MAybve it was the Women I dont know but it was not a good experiebce for me she would not stop and I could not cum So she was having a great time and I was not enjoing it after a while I wanted to stop and I finally told her taht was enough and I ws hurting I have a bad hip I have arthrities in my back anbd My hip and I was in pain my roommate was liviung here and she heard nme yell stop and knocked on the door I told her I was ok then because IU had gotten uo and she finally stoped. I was embarsed and I think aboiut that failure when I meet someone I worry that it wikl happen again and I womt knwo what to do I hope that It does notb happen agaiun Itb was 2 times and that is how many times I have been with someone after my divorce I am embarsed to say that but its true I jsut dont know what to do and I am worried, I am a nice giy and I know I wpuld treat someone vewry nice I jsut have tp pray and Nope that I will meet someone soon and not be afraid to ask then for thier phoine niumber and call them upo and ask them out It would be nice to have someone to talk to right now I dont call anyone here I dont know anyone except my ex roommate and she does not awnser her phone is always on voice mail I ahve left messages but All I get are messages back on myspace thats all And I dont ahve any other females to call right now/

No answers yet