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Mon, Oct 12 02:38 PM

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Well... I'm half way through the day and I only considered smoking once.  It's funny that when I look back at the thought itself, it only lasted a minute or two.  But if you asked me at that moment how long it lasted I would have sworn it was an hour that I was fighting the urge.  It's also interesting that day two of the program is about how I talk to myself.  In that moment, I told myself I wanted to smoke.  I told myself that whatever my reason for quiting is could wait.  I know better now... but the brain is a strange instrument! 

 

Luckily I have this song stuck in my head.  "STOP! TAKE SOME TIME TO THINK!  FIGURE OUT WHAT'S IMPORTANT TO YOU!  STOP! TAKE SOME TIME TO THINK!  MAKE A SERIOUS DECISION!"

 

So... why do I want to quite?  Because smoking makes me content!  It makes me feel like I can just sit back and let life happen.  But when I let "life happen", it doesn't happen even remotely close to how I would want it to... if I take the time to decide!  And who would have guessed it... that's how I found myself where I am today.  With an "okay" life that just happened. 

 

And all along I have been telling myself that things are fine.  Indeed they are, but I'm tired of fine!  I want "AMAZING!  FANTASTIC!  EXCELLENT!"  I want to have the energy and guts to make something happen!  And that something has never happened while I sit on my porch puffing on a cigarette!

 

"I can do this!  I am going to do this!  I am going to learn these tools and make them mine!"

 

 

 

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RickB RickB:

Grats!

Grats man, keep up the good work!! (Good tune too)

dobbywarnshryptr dobbywarnshryptr:

Seriously, awesome

I completely love everything you wrote.  And I totally understand what you said about urges.  They do seem to last a lifetime in the moment, but once you overcome it, it is seriously empowering isn't it?  I laughed when I read the song you were playing in your head.  Bet you a million bucks that that's what's going to happen to me when I start having urges now...so thank you for that! hah

 

I want amazing too, let's do it.Smile  Let's not let life happen to us, let's make life happen.

 

 

 

 

~Kirsten~