Today (day 6 again, forgot to press the button again) I did some work. I read and I wrote. Part of that is the pressure of a meeting with a tutor tomorrow. The difference is that I'm not freaked out about it. I'm not frightened by the work. I accept it will take me a long time and the work will be late, but I feel calmer and more at peace with my task. I even enjoyed it a bit. That's a breakthrough too. I want to be bored when I'm not working on my research!