I'm 23 years old and live with two roommates. I play the guitar/bass and thoroughly enjoy playing video games and spending time with my friends and family.
I was working towards a Bachelors in Communications but life happens and due to financial reasons, I'm not able to complete my remaining 12 credits.
I worked for an online retailer for the past 4 years and decided I should change my career path. I quit at the end of March this year and tried selling security systems for an up and coming company. I quit after 8 days.
I now work at a Law Firm where I spend all of my time on the phone speaking with people about getting their lives back together, financially speaking.
I was a happy person until my parents' divorce last year. I really didn't think that I would be affected as bad because I'm a young adult, not a little kid.
My dad removed himself completely out of my sister and I's lives and began mentoring young adults on how to be successful entrepreneurs. He is also heavily into fitness and occasionnally competes in marthons/triathalons and enjoys the attention.
My mom is still heavily involved in my sister and I's lives. She gave away everything she and my dad acquired during their marriage and started over in a neighboring city where she teaches pilates at a world-class ski resort.
I can't place what actually became the defining moment in my life where I lost my motivation, drive and persistence to carry on with school. But my parents' divorce was the excuse I hid behind for quite some time.
I drink often, almost every night. There were times when I'd be drunk within the hour of getting home from work. And other times where I only had enough money for gas, but spent it on booze.
I was on depression meds for about 6 months last year and stopped taking them because I obsessed about suicide. I never actually wanted to kill myself but I couldn't stop thinking about different ways that I could die.
When I told my doctor about the symptoms, I was told to increase my doses and that those thoughts should subside. I ended up quitting the medication altogether.
My sister and good friend are my roommates but we all have the same bad habits--we all drink too much and too often. We want to better ourselves and get out of this "funk" that we're all in but we don't hold each other accountable or encourage each other to do better for ourselves.
I found this website by accident but I wanted to try it out to see if there might be people out there who have been in my shoes or know what I'm going through.
I want to become a positive person again. I want to live in a better house with a better job and with healthy people surrounding me.
I feel extremely lost at this point in my life and I have no idea how to make the best of my situation.
I feel very alone.
It was just me, my sister and my mother growing up. My sister and I are 17 months apart and she's my best friend.
My real dad was never in the picture growing up. My mom re-married when I was 10 to a successful businessman where they were married for 12 years.
My mom is not a patient person, growing up was hard with her temper. I strongly feel that is the reason I am not a confident person, I always second-guess myself.
My dad traveled a lot of the time. I never really had a decent relationship with him, he was more like a friend that I went snowboarding with, or camping with, or, the 'Disneyland Dad' as my mom phrased it. But I was never close with him.
I'm not going to say that I struggle with my sexuality because I've known for a long time who I am. I am a bi-sexual and that has been hard for my mom to accept.
When my parents found out I had a girlfriend at 18, the reaction was not well-received. My mom and I fought constantly and my dad thought he could keep me from speaking to my girlfriend. When he found out I was still in contact with her, he sent me to Arizona for a week long of psycho-therapy sessions. Therapy convinced me that I was a monster, but, after time I realized there was nothing wrong with me, and that realization brought another one: that I hated my dad.
At 19 I ran away from home to live with my girlfriend. In Spain. At the time it was the only option I had to hold on to any remaining sanity. I spent all the money I had on the ticket and was broke almost immediately.
I returned home two months later when my 12-year-old cousin was killed at a boy scouts retreat.
I was able to make ammends with my family at my cousins funeral but it was not easy trying to get back in their good graces over time.
I went back to Spain for New Years and discovered that my girlfriend had cheated on me while I was home--the relationship ended.
I tried to take school seriously but my grades were horrible.
I moved out with a friend of mine around the fall of '10 where I developed the serious drinking problem I have today. My sister also developed a drinking problem and sleeps around quite often as well.
I don't sleep around, but I don't go out and make friends either. I'm a stay-at-home kind of drunk when I get home from work. I no longer go to the gym or do anything with friends to get me out of the house. I've been that way for 2 and a half years and it has got to stop.
I have big dreams for myself but I lack the drive and energy to go for these dreams.
I know that completing school will be a big acheivement but I can't afford it at this time. But I'm so close in getting my bachelors, I know I can't give up on school altogether.
5 years ago I would have told anyone who asked that I'd have my degree at 22 and that I'd be managing a bar or working as a manager for a local band.
I want to own my own bar and have local musicians play shows at my bar . I realized I wouldn't like being a manager of a band, so I thought I'd enjoy owning a venue even more.
I want to own my own house by the time I'm 30, I'm tired of renting from landlords and having to clean up after roommates.
Im not in a hurry to get married or have kids, my career needs to come first while I still have my youth. In my opinion anyway.
Id love to travel the world, if my career afforded me the opportunity to travel I wouldnt ask for anything else.
I wanted a safe, confidential way to meet people who are struggling with the same things I am.
You are offered your dream job. What job is it?:
My favorite wild animal is:
Why (describe as much as possible):
I had a stuffed koala bear when I was 12 or 13.. At the time I related to a koala bear because they sleep all day and eat--which were the only things I wanted to do when I was younger. I also think they look cute, I can't help it.
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
I love dogs and cats. I prefer larger dogs like labs, German Shepards or huskies because small dogs bark and lick a lot. I like cats because they mind their own business and have a lot of attitude. Sometimes that's a good and bad thing.
I just like pets in general. Something that loves you no matter what.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
Anything in Chinese cuisine, or, a bacon cheeseburger.
Who doesnt like Chinese food or a good bacon cheeseburger? I'm always in the mood for either one.
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
Alexander the Great, Abraham Lincoln, George Washington, Cleopatra, and Angelina Jolie.
I want to know how every single one of them overcame their obstacles.
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
Europe, anywhere in Europe
My perfect slice of pizza is:
Large slices, with a little extra sauce, lots of cheese, any meat topping, and a nice buttery crust that isn't too hard or soft.
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
Whiskey and Diet Coke
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
Black iced coffee or sweetened green tea
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
Id be the most creative person, with unlimited wealth, and have a good self-esteem.
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring
(separate by commas):
Garbage, Lady GaGa, and System of A Down
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
To help clean it up
A sunset I remember:
Is on the beach in Mexico, over New Years.
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be: