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Birth Date: Wed, May 28

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Paranaque Manila Philippines, Philippines (map)

I am: Single & Not Dating

Schools: OB MONTESSORI COLLEGE

Jobs: worked for California Pizza kitchen based in Manila, Trained for Telus International Philippines as a service agent.

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  honeysugarbee

Sat, Jul 05 07:58 PM

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 list of the things I have done in the past. now im pissed and very much angry well of my life I've been like that since i was a kid habouring anger everyday. 

First of all, I'm a sexaddict i only found out about it when i was 23 because of counselling but it was because I was abused as a young child by the age of 7. When I was growing up i went to having relationship with men just for sex and willing to do everything for that. I also been aggressive in finding and getting what I want. Just in 2001 I had a boyfriend that was a losser and we just used each other for sex and nothing more and it ended badly. By 2006 In the latter part of 2005 to 2006 before I graduated in college i was having my on the job training when i went into a relationship with a married man I was in it for about 4 months. I ended up sending money and paying bills for us to just have sex. I almost lost my diploma because of it. Because in the course of that last relationship I didnt go to my classes and just went out with him everyday after work and even on weekends. So at the year of August 2006 i was brought to rehab because of it amd I stayed their for a year. But when i got home the first few months I was creating chaos at home i ended up having sex on cam and getting online I went as far as getting naked on cam. And not only that i ended up watching porn. 
And now, i'm trying very hard to change and still I think i have no success although i dont do those things online anymore. I still am harbouring anger and all negative energy and tend to be selfish and self absorbing not accepting anything. I dont discount what i did but I get angry and very furious when the topic is talked about. And now im very pissed and very angry at everything and i dont get along with anybody.                  

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sirg sirg:

Your OK im OK

Dear Honetbeesugarbee,

I cannot understand the pain but i can empathise. Whatever yoyu did in your past is your past. The challenge is to stop finding excuses and complaining, I dont say this easily as I have not yet managed to do this but am trying.

So my little message is intended to strengthen you for we each need encouragement and motivation along our way. Do not struggle alone make the changes with support from your friends and family.

Learn to love yourself and make the decisions that will take you forward. We are all here to improve ourselves, no doubt it took tremendous courage for you to write this, use the same courage to make the change.

Much Love

Fred

sebbiek sebbiek:

go for it

hey honeysugarbabe

all those things you did and all those things you have been through are maybe not nice memories to think about.

but you just have to accept them as your past.

just try to learn your lesoon out of all the things that happen and let them go.

feeling angry about all this and pissed it's no use cause all those things you can't change anymore.

i must say im impressed by you cause you already took the courage to write this in your blog and i think is the first step already to succes.

 

you can chance your habbit of today and tommorow and in the future.

i'm not saying this will go easy but you will succed at the end when you put yourself into the program.

 

lots of people here on TTL have done bad things in there life and want to chance.

it's all just a mather of making the right decision for you.

i hope you will make a good decision and also hope to see more of you on TTL.

 

greetings sebastiaan