In my years, I've only actually had one relationship, and although it was quite serious, it ended up in lies and cheating.  It ended Freshman year of college, and I've been hitting nothing but dead ends since.  I can attribute many of my down years to a poor self image and I'm sure less than fantastic attitude.  That being said, I've come a long way since I decided to make a better me.  With my new found confidence tucked in my belt, I tried to get back in the game, and was turned away...  I don't even know where to begin anymore.

Anyway, sorry for ranting, but relationships have always been a difficult topic for me to deal with, and I felt I needed to get it off my chest.  I'm just going to put in effort and be the best I can be, perhaps this will just take time.  Thanks for listening, I'm glad to be back.

I'm not sure what it is, maybe it's a culmination of things that have happened the last couple days, and maybe it was just triggered by hearing Coach Steele on the radio today, but...  I'm feeling great, and I'm so glad you're all here with me feeling great too.  Let's do this!  Red Dragons!

Anyway, silly paranoia theory over.  I started working out at my new gym today, and I really feel great.  I need to be pushing myself all the time, it really helps.  Now that I feel like I've reached a big milestone, I'm ready for more.  This self-improvement thing is addictive.

The biggest thing I need to work on right now is letting things REALLY soak in.  I can and have been doing the steps, and they have helped immensely, but I still need that deep down transformation.  It will come, I can do it!

I feel like this personal growth is really coming at me in steps.  I'm finally starting to think that I've gotten on the right track for physical health.  I'm eating better, I've joined a new workout program, and I've lost 15 pounds.  Every step I take toward a healthy body makes me feel great!  So now that I've gotten a good start on climbing that hill, my mind is bringing me into other aspects of my life that need work. 

My career is a major one of those aspects.  I can't help but try to analyze my feelings about work every day.  I don't dislike engineering, but I just don't feel any passion.  I can't wait to start setting my mind to work on figuring this stuff out!

I've found renewed purpose in wanting to be a pleasant purpose as well.  Our landlord isn't doing his duties, and he's being incredibly rude and negative.  It shows me how much your attitude shapes how people perceive you, and it makes me want to be a positive person every day.

Thanks for listening all, we will make it!

Laughing away negativity...  sounds like a good plan.  It's really impossible to stay negative while you're laughing.  I started being a bit more vigilant about the checklist, as I feel I've always been lacking in that department.  Reading through the list a couple times throughout my day really helps me remember the TOOLS I need.  

I think I might be putting too much importance on the improvement I seek for my body and my attitude toward my body.  I'm currently down about 14 pounds, and I'm joining a new fitness program tomorrow morning.  This is great, but I need to make sure that I'm making positive changes throughout the rest of my life too.  I want to find a relationship, I want to get the career I've always wanted, I want to be the best me.  Perhaps I'm grabbing the lower hanging fruit first, and I need more TOOLS to climb a bit higher.

Tomorrow, I'm going to have a great day!

I just wanted to express a little frustration about weekends.  I've been having trouble staying focused on my goals during the weekend.  I do really well all week, following the checklist, working out, eating well.  Then the weekend comes and I tend to let myself go.  I eat what I want, I don't work out in lieu of "more fun" activities, and I don't take the time to think about my behavior and thought processes.

I am slowly getting better though, and I'm sure if I keep working on myself, I can train my brain and my body to do the things I need to do all the time.  Well, time to try the sleeping tips.  Good night!

I've started running.  I never enjoyed it, but I simply decided to change my attitude.  I still can't say I get excited to go run every day, but it is a nice way to take some stress off a long day.  Along with my attempts at eating right (I'm far from a dietitian, but I'm trying), I've lost about 11 pounds so far.

On top of that, I've been approaching life with a positive attitude, and I know people are noticing it.  My co-workers have been giving me grief for being that happy guy in the morning.

Final note:  I'm realizing more how much support from other people can help you make a better life.  I'm trying to get a good friend to join TOOLS, I think it would be good for both of us.  Even hearing Ellis on the radio every day helps keep me going.  So thanks everyone, and let's keep doing this!

Seriously, it's time for that to stop.  I'm here to make my life better, and that's exactly what I'm going to do.  No excuses, only opportunities.

I AM back on track now.