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Sun, Jan 27 12:00 AM

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I'm so glad there is nothing to add to the checklist today! They've gotten so long I feel overwhelmed by them. It's hard to start because I don't ever feel I have enough time to complete everything. Then I feel like a failure because it's one more thing I wasn't able to complete. I need about a thirty hour day! I'm doing TOOLS right now on my break at work. So when my break is over, I won't really have had a "rest". Sometimes I have to cut my lunch short to complete everything in TOOLS.

I feel like my whole life is like that. Borrowing from Peter to pay Paul. Constantly trying to meet deadlines. I've pared down about as much as I'm able. I'm only working enough to support my family to the bare minimum. We've only one car to keep expenses down. Our daughters contribute from their part time jobs to help ends meet. My wife and I rarely go out, and when we do it's definately on the cheap. We've scaled back on commitments  that were costing too much finacially or, more importantly, time wise, to continue. It still never seems to be enough, and the days are just packed. Then there's TOOLS. I'm supposed to track and attack one excuse and one complaint every day. I'm supposed to create a new personal law every day. I'm supposed to exercise every day. I'm supposed to stop and "smell the flowers" twice a day. I'm supposed to listen to my self-help tapes twice a day. I'm supposed to "take a sec" and do somethng to make my life better everyday. I'm supposed to read 15 minutes before bedtime everyday. I'm supposed ot review my to do list everyday. I'm supposed to recite my gratitude list aloud before going to bed everyday. The list goes on and on.......

Some days I just can't even muster the mental energy to open my TOOLS book and even look at the lists. Then I feel the guilt and shame of not doing what I've purposed to do. Can't lie to myself. If I didn't do it, I failed to do it. Arrrrgh!!!

Well, break is over, back to work. I feel sooooo rejuvinated and refreshed. NOT!

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Minerva Minerva:

Me Too!

I started to feel the same as you do, and even contemplated giving up entirely as a result.

 

But I decided instead to slash the daily checklist radically, to the tasks that offered the most benefit to me. Not ideal perhaps , but at least I keep working on the things I most need to be aware of in my daily life.

 

After all, Tools is meant to be TO life, not INSTEAD of a life Smile