I have such a dilemma that meets me head on every single day. I simply don't make enough money! I have a job that pays pretty well, but it just isn't enough. I am not getting ahead, and in fact, I feel like I am slipping farther behind a little bit almost every day.
I don't have a college degree, but I have some college. However, I have skills and experience that run circles around people with degrees. I am smart. Very smart. Just not smart enough to figure out how to get a better job that pays more!!! Companies won't talk to me in many cases solely because I don't have a degree.
I have accolades and praises from many people regarding my skills and talents and abilities. They are many and very strong in many areas. If you care to look, here is a resume online where you can see my skills, recommendations, and experience. I even have several work samples from different jobs or projects I have done.
http://teamworkdreamwork.com/resume
So where is my answer? I have a large family, and grocery bills alone are over $1000 every month, and sometimes higher than the $1200 rent I have to pay for a house that is big enough for us. I have to live on the edge of civilization and commute into town 40 miles in order to be able to get the rent all the way down to $1200 a month! I am starting to think that maybe I could shift money spent on gas could be put into Rent, but it's still a lateral move, and I need instead to be making improvments.
I get so sick and tired of running out of money days and days before the next paycheck is due to arrive, and not having enough food in the pantry and fridge to make it. I make way too much money for assistance of any kind, but I still feel like I am living below the poverty line. My wife needs new glasses/contacts, the pair she has now is a set of reading glasses we bought at Walmart because we don't have insurance and money to get another eye exam and glasses for real. Our clothes are old and wearing thin because we buy for the kids first...and all 6 of them are growing out of their clothes too.
Our van was virtually purchased FOR us when we had to move here and stay with my mother-in-law because we didn't have any kind of vehicle at all when we got here. We have filed Ch13 Bankruptcy, and so this Van is all I have for transportation to and from work. My wife is stuck at home all day, but she is working from home answering phones and scheduling work for her Dad's business. It doesn't pay well, but it's something she can do from home. Home...which feels to her more like a prison because I have the only vehicle.
Our kids are homeschooled, not just because we don't like to local schools, but because we have no way to drive them to better schools. I have the only vehicle.
We have our dreams and goals, but I get so damn discouraged on days like today, when I check the bank balance and see that it is going to go into the red tomorrow because we had to pay some past due bills and buy groceries, and now once again, we have overspent.
I won't even go into how we are struggling to find a way to have anything for Christmas for the kids because this has already been hard enough to talk about...
And today's message from Coach was about Attitude. I am having a hell of a time staying chipper about life with such burdens on me right now...Usually I am the one with the up and positive attitude even in the face of huge challenges. But not tonight. I wish that changing my attitude could fix my negative bank balance, but no matter how hard I smile at it, and tell it I'm having a GREAT DAY!...it's still a red number.
It's time for me to scramble and find some way to cover my negative balance and get a few more groceries before I get paid on Friday.
I am very good at computer stuff. If any of you have any computer work I can do for you (fixing a problem on your PC, teaching you how to use something on your computer like new software or an Internet program) I can help.
I need to make a few hundred dollars as quickly as possible, and I will bend over backwards to take care of your problem, fix your PC errors, or even help you find the right computer stuff to buy for Christmas. I am not looking for a handout, but I want to earn my way out of my dilemma.
If you know anyone who needs computer help, please give them my email address: jim@i-supportdesk.com or my cell phone number: 602-791-3371
Thanks for reading this. I think writing it helped a little bit. And maybe if any of you know anyone that is willing to pay a fair price for help with their PC, maybe writing this will have helped me solve my dilemma.
Take care everyone!
